Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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What a dinner! :/

So yesterday, i thought. Damn, cant we haev better food. Sick of the same food. So instead of the same white fish which we hae (if we have fish) what about salmon? Or like instead of jsut chicke and potatoes, something else. 
  So for lunch..... GUess what i got? Salmon! Wow, im good! So i was pretty happy with that! But then for dinner.... guess what i got again? NOpe didnt guess did you? I got salmon. Damn, am i really that good at manifesting? BUt there was some mix up for the dinner. Some poeple were ordered for twice, while otehrs werent even ordered for. and some got the ae thignas they ahd had for lunch. and aswell tere was no sauce, so we had to haev this weet and sour sauce (which isnt sweet and soure.Its SUPER CHILLI! [ It burns like hell, my eyes were watering.:(]) Liek salmon isnt bad, but i prefer variety, for soemthign like dinner or lunch, i dont want the same thing (for my snacks or breakfast, i ahve to like make myself choose soemthign else because i get so fixed on having the same thign that it jsut becomes routine and i dont choose anythign else) so after a long while of people complaing and swapping meals i got chicken wok with rice instead. So that worked out well. But it will be good to be able to take my dinner and lunch here wiht mum, and it might actually be vegetarian food!! There is some real nice veg. meat balls, sausages, nuggets! (i dont know why they've made hte vegetarian stuff like meat? if your that desperate to eat meat, jsut eat it, why get it vegetarian style?) And Prawns!!
   So yeah... and then this weekend, if we go to the cinema, i think ill take my new sweet alternative, as i can kind of eat ick N mix. Well.. im not to sure now. Cus the last day i was gonna ge Pic N mix, and i ahd choosen it adn as we were going up to the cashier, i started thinking abotu how fatty it is, how euuggghhh it is. and then i was jsut like, No... cant eat this. so i jsut put it back, im surprised that mum let me. Iw oud ahev thought that she would ahve been like, you know what. You can eat this, and you are going to. Or soemthign liek that. But she seems to jsut let me be indecisive. Like now a days, sometimes i cant even choose which fruit or cereal im gonna hvae. Liek dont even bother taking em shopping, im useless. I dont know why im so indecisive. Its stupid and un fair. :/

But hey, who said lifes fair? Sure as hell, Not Me.


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