All on my own.

:( All on my own. Im hte only one here. :( It sucks. For lunch, i think there's one girl coming up from the hotel, but still.... now unitl lunch im all on my own and then after lunch im all on my own untl 4pm. And the staff which are coming on after lunch, i DISLIKE WITH PASSION! So urrggghhhh and im gonna have to have my 15 o clock snack with them. And they're jsut gonna tell me to eat faster, just because they eat like pigs. :(
  Urrgghhh.... it sucks so much, i want my mum. It was os much easier, she could come and ick me up when i had time out. Like now... the girl who has had time out all week, seh is also doing the 24 hour thing, dont get me wrong, its greta, but im jsut sooo jealous. Why couldnt ig et time out all week AND get to do the 24 hour thing? Why?
  Cus soon if i dont get anyhting good, im gonna get to the point where id ont care ebcause if  im doing good and its not recognised, im not treated for it, im just stuck in hospital whether i do good or not, i get ot the point where i dont care because either way im stcuk in here, i think it was a bit like that in ireland and im worreid i'll start thinking in htat mind frame again. Like i find my anorexic thoughts are gettng more ower over me, like yesterday with my snack when i was actually thinking of not taking it, because the others had eaten less than me, so why should i eat? But i did. But like i've been more sad, crying alot. I havent thought of self-harm, but i'm worried i will if it carries on like this. :(
  Hmmmm...

Unfair..... but who said life was fair? I've been dealt alot of shit, and got no good out of it. Thats not exactly fair.

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^^^^ I wish i could fly, just get away from all this shit. ^^^^