Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: [email protected]

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Showing posts with label my breakfast. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my breakfast. Show all posts

Friday, November 6, 2015

Happiness can be found in the smallest of things

This morning i was reminded of the fact that happiness comes doing what you enjoy. Being kind to yourself and listening to your body.

I started my morning with a walk in the forest while listening to a podcast and it reminded me of just how much i love being out in nature and love my morning walks. It brings me a sense of peace and happiness, but i havent had the time or motivtion for morning walks so often recently or i have just said "it's too cold". But whenever i do go for morning walks i am reminded of just how much i love them... or evening walks for that matter, though i rarely do any exercise in the evenings, haha. Thats my "relaxing" time.

Anyway, tehn when i got back to the apartment i made myself breakfast with some of the remaining fruit (though had bought more berries and another caramel protein pudding!). While eating my breakfast i felt this sort of happiness..... i felt happy over my nice morning. Doing two things i love, morning walk and then a delicious and nutritious breakfast. It just feels like nothing can go wrong today because i have had this awesome start to my day. But also how happiness can come from just these small things. Such as for me, i feel happy when i make my food look good. That is something i enjoy and gives me a sense of happiness, though of course not all meals are made to look good, infact 80% of my meals are just thrown on the plate and then devoured.  But when i make the food look good its like it tastes 10 times better.

Though this is just my opinion, some would say its just a time waster and back in 2013 i remember i wrote a post saying how i didnt care how my food looked because i just ate it, but now my opinion has changed on that. Though as long as it doesnt become something obsessive then its fine, according to me :)




^^The truth, hahaha XD


Now the rest of my Friday will be spent studying - not so surprising really XD

Have a lovely Friday everyone and comment below if you have any positives of the day or something you want to share :)

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Peanut butter time

It feels like forever ago since i last had peanut butter. I used to eat it all the time back in 2013 i think, but then i felt that i prefered to just eat nuts as they were and i consumed far too much peanut butter so i just got tired of it. But ive been craving it recently so when my parents went food shopping yesterday that was something i asked if they could buy!!

This mornings brekafast was magical! Yoghurt with muslie, salted peanuts, raspberries and peanut butter & 1 egg & 1 egg white and black coffee. Mmmmmmmm



Today we are taking the boat out the island so I am hoping that it will be good weather :)


Do you have any weekend plans? :)

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Saturday plans

Good morning :):)
 
At the moment im sitting on my bed with a coffee close by and thinking about my plans for the day. I thought i should write a little to do list so that i get everything done, but i thought i might as well write it on here as well..... :)

Just eaten breakfast and now im getting ready because i have to

1) Go to the library to get a book
2) go clothes shopping.... when you realise that you have been wearing pretty much the same thing for the past 12 months! Though i have a feeling that i will end up coming home with new Nike shorts and compression socks.......
3) Start working on my Swedish assignment....Though i have a feeling i might skip this and just focus 90% on it tomorrow :):)
4) Colour my hair Waiitt... Ehhhm... its all natural?!!! Or if my hair hadnt gotten so ruined from all the colouring of my hair when i was 12-14, then the hair colour i have now would have been my natural hair colour!!!
5) Go on a date and go to the cinema & eat dinner.....


I think that is all on my list of to do things... and if i have time i need to make a vlogg or two & clean my room!!!



I hope you all have a good day :):)

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Winterwonderland

Yesterdays snowstorm has now passed and what is left is c.a 10cm or more of snow on the ground. Its pretty,icy and cold. I actually dont mind the snow so much, not at the moment anyway. I like to see the environmental benefits of it.... because if it didnt snow at all during winter in Sweden then that would be a very bad sign of climate change and global warming and would have alot of negative impacts. So i like to see the positives of snow and for the climate. For now anyway :) hahah '

This morning a short walk with the dog was what i felt like doing, felt stiff in my body and i felt the need to stretch my body. Daisy did most of the activity though, i mostly stood there, walked a few hundred meters, stood another while and repeated that for 15 minutes.







^^she hates when i take pictures, so she turns her head and closes her eyes!


Then it was breakfast that awaited me when I came home again... and you have to give me points for creativity and attempt at making it look good :) 
  Quark, berries, nuts, 2 paprikas and 3 fried eggs! Top the eggs with salt and pepper and they are soo good. Infact the whole meal was delicious :)









I also want to thank all of you who commented on my previous post 'Eat to live, dont live to eat'. I have taken all your comments onboard and will make some small changes in what i write and such :) And of course, dont be scared to ask me questions or topic suggestions. I will try to answer those i have gotten recently, and if i have missed your question or topic suggestion just let me know :)

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Back to school

It feels weird returning to school on a Thursday. Yesterday it felt like it was Sunday and today (only been awake 45 minutes or so) i keep thinking its Monday. Though only 2 days in school until its the weekend again, thats not so bad :) It gives me time to slowly adjust to the early mornings, though it wasnt so hard this morning. It was just the initial ringing of the alarm where you feel like turning it off, rolling over and sleeping for the rest of the day. But after my third alarm (ive learnt thati like to hit stop instead of snooze so have to put like 5 alarms in the morning, on days where i need to start getting up early!)i was up and ready to go!

A super filling breakfast this morning to give the energy i need:
500g quark, raisins, nuts, blueberries, raspberries, 2 boiled eggs and an energy drink. Full? Yes. Filled with energy? Definitely. The way it should be after breakfast!!!


Now its time to get ready and try to figure out my day! My schedule is wrong so i dont really know which lessons i have today... but i will figure it out when i get to school :)

Are you back in school/work?

Either way... whether you are at home, in hospital, school, work, on holidays have a great day :)
Focus on your healthy goals! And keep fighting.



Sunday, January 4, 2015

Girls night out

Hello!!!
 Sitting here and thinking about how to word last night. How to formulate the emotions, feelings and thoughts into words. How to share the fun and excitement i experienced yesterday through words on a screen.
   One word can sum up the nigh - Fun.

To begin with the night wasnt so well organized, but when you plan to go dancing and drinking.... is the night ever organized? We met as a group, 6 girls (me included) and two guys and walked to the club. We were there just before midnight but there was hardly any people and the dancefloor was pretty much empty. So we stood there in a little group trying to dance to the beat of the awful music. But as the time went by the music got better, more people entered the club and the dancefloor and the pre anxiousness and nerves passed by and suddenly i could completely enjoy myself on the dance floor. Not feel self consciousness, but have a really good time.
   My friends all took a beer but i just took a redbull feeling that i didnt want to or need to drink. I could enjoy myself without drinking... but also, i still have a very all or nothing feeling with alcohol. I feel there is no point just having one cider, instead i might as well drink 4.... So i prefer to stick to the nothing and enjoy myself without alcohol, that is what works best for me :)
   We danced and we danced until it felt like my toes were bleeding, my knee was about to pop and my legs could barely keep me standing. So at 3am we began to get ready to go and i was home again by 4am at which point i was starving and dehydrated.
 
Infact i suddenly now realise why people go to McDonalds after a night out, because all i was craving was a cola, milkshake and fries!!!

So when i came home i made myself a huge snack - 500g quark with raisins and walnuts, 4 crisp bread with spread followed by a questbar!! Finally feeling full, but it also made it super hard to fall asleep then as my body was turning the food into energy! So it wasnt until 5am or later that i finally fell asleep!
  And then i woke up around 10am this morning... though im feeling super awake despite a few hours sleep. However the first thing my sister said when she saw me was: Wow, you look tired and puffy. hahahah XD
      My body is sore from yesterdays workout and my feet are swollen and covered in blisters (3 hours of dancing in very high heels... yup, it does cause pain in the feet!) so my plan is to go to the shop and buy chocolate and other yummy food and just spend the day in bed :):)



Below you see my brunch as i wasnt hungry when i woke up, so decided to wait a little while before making a bigger breakfast combined with lunch!







Saturday, December 27, 2014

All pink and pancake breakfast

This mornings breakfast was extra delicious because i ate pancakes!! It was normal pancakes which my step dad made, but he makes them in some special way so that they become super crisp and delicious! I love oatmeal or protein pancakes but you know what, i think my step dads pancakes win!!
 As well as the pancakes i ate a bowl of quark mixed with vanilla yoghurt, nuts and berries as well as some BCAAs!







^¨Daisy was also hungry this morning!!


Even though im not working out today i wanted to show you my all pink outfit which i want to (but wont) wear to my next workout!!! (The shorts are too small so they look like hotpants and its impossible to workout in them!) but otherwise... i want to be all pink at the gym next time!! :)







For now, i have lots to do, so i hope you all have a great day :)

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Christmas day!!

Good morning everyone :)
   Its the 25th and Christmas day meaning that alot of people are celebrating Christmas today... though not everyone. Infact not everyone likes Christmas, which i can fully understand. I think Christmas has turned into asort of boasting event about who gets the best presents, who has the pretties outfit, who takes the best pictures etc etc instead of the actual meaning of Christmas. Spending time with loved ones and the whole religious background as well.

This morning i woke up early as my sister got up to go to the bathroom and then she fell back asleep, but i couldnt so i made myself something small to eat before deciding whether to go out for a walk or run or just stay inside. But everyone else was still asleep and it looked so pretty outside with the snow falling so i decided ill run as far as i want to and see where i end up! I also wanted to test my new running belt/reflector which i got :)













When i came home from my run everyone else was awake and the breakfast food was all laid out so it was just to jump in the shower and then make myself some breakfast and coffee!! Breakfast was similar to yesterday - with even more bread afterwards!





The rest of the family have now gone out for a walk so ive sat and looked at University courses for autumn as well as making a list of to do things!!! The 25th in Sweden is still a holiday, but its not as much of a holiday as yesterday... so while it may seem weird to actually be doing something productive, its not really. Not for me anyway!! :)

When the rest of my family come back my step dad is going to take some photos of me when i run in the snow!! Cant wait for that... i have photos from running in the summer, autumn and spring so now to add to that collection with some winter running photos!!! :)

Enjoy your day everyone, no matter what you do :)