Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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Never cold

Its so weird, im never cold anymore. Like before i'd be wrapped in jumpers and have scarfs and gloves, and still fel cold even though it was sunny outside, and always complaining about the cold. but now... its the opposite, im walking around in just a pair of shorts and a tank top while everyone else is huddled up in a blanket complaining about how cold it is, while im complaining about how warm i am. Like there's air conditioning here so sometimes i feel a slight chill, but i seem to adapt to it so easily.
  Like when i first came here to Mando, there was a girl who was stick then (she still is) but she'd go outside when it was windy and all of us other girls would want ot go in cus we were cold but shed sit there in just a tank top, and youd see the hairs sticking up on her arms, but she claimed she wasnt cols. My first thoughy; i dont believe you, how can you not be so cold? ofcourse i didnt say that, but thats whta i thought.
   BUt now.... thats exactly how i am.
 Like all the staff keep telling me to put on jumpers, thinking that im walking around with just a t-shirt because i want to lsoe calories by being cold. BUt i dont believe in that, i dont think you lose calories by standing or being cold. Like why would you?

But yah... its so weird, like a first i todl my mum that it was because my body was absorbing all the food that i eat but she was like, no you're cold then because all the blood rushes to your stoach, and i think she's right, because i've had that before when suddenly i go all cold and my stomach starts gurgling, and i canf eel it absorbing the food. So what, am i not absorbnig the food if im all warm? Its either that, or because im all fat now, that the fat is keeping me warm.

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