Damn, its gone badly today. i havent even done 5% right. :/
Why does this thing have so much control of me?
Ive jsut done wrong wrong wrong today. im not strong enough o ask for help.
Its almst a relief to go to Mando tomorrow. cus then i know, that i'll eat right. it soudns weird, but its like i do want to get better, get help, but things arent working at home.
but im hoping this week, by jsut going ot Mando for hte day and then home for the evening, thta i jsut shape up. that i atleast eat 4 of my 6 meals right.
After a 5 year struggle with anorexia (with purging tendencies), depression, self harm and over exercising I have now been recovered for 4 years and i use my blog to help others in the same situation i once was. I am now a happy and positive person who wants to inspire those struggling to choose recovery and to take control over life and happiness again!
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When I got home from HDV, I was negative for the treatment. I decided I didn't want to go, so the first week I wanted to stay at home. But then I felt the same way, wanted to go back to eat right again. I wanted help but didn't want to ask for it, didn't want to leave anorexia. After I had thought about it and considered it carefully, I knew that it was the best thing to do. So, even if it doesn't work out some time, don't worry because you still have Mando. You can feel safe, that even if such days come, you still have the clinic to get you on track.
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