Lunch is already forgotten.
I haven't swollen up like a balloon after eating potatoes drenched in oil. Nothing has happened to me. The angst and guilt after foods like that is awful.
I'm trying to remind myself, you want to get better. Get healthy.
Right now, I'm feeling very good!! Haha! I actually like what I'm wearing. Converse, leather jacket and skinny jeans (God knows when I last wore skinny jeans. I always feel fat in them, and it doesn't help that the jeans aren't baggy on me anymore, don't even need a belt for them anymore. :/ but I'm trying not to thunk of it.)
It definitely feels like spring when you can wear a leather jacket!! :)
I'm planning next weekend to go on a shopping trip, I deserve it and need it. It just makes me feel crappy when I try to put on the clothes which used to be baggy on me, and now they're more fitted. It doesn't help. So it's time to get some new clothes, and try to not think about the clothes size. (36 now. Was 32-34 before. STOP! clothes size isn't important!)
I've also straightened my hair, and have my full fringe down, not hiding it away. It's funny how just straightening my hair, can make me feel good!!
I've also got loads of nice comments about my hair, everyone seems to like my full fringe and are impressed that I cut it myself.
So that's bringing a smile to my face, and I'm hoping that this smile stays here!!! :)
After a 5 year struggle with anorexia (with purging tendencies), depression, self harm and over exercising I have now been recovered for 4 years and i use my blog to help others in the same situation i once was. I am now a happy and positive person who wants to inspire those struggling to choose recovery and to take control over life and happiness again!
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Life without Anorexia
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: [email protected]
You should definitely smile all the time, it suits you :) I saw you today as you were coming out of the teachers room and your hair was really cool! Always pretty! :)
ReplyDeleteHugs, A.