we were gonna go to the Fotograkiska (photography) museum, but it was so packed that it wouldnt haev eben any fun, so we jsut wondered down to Gamla Stan, and sat in the sun.
then my mum was going to go see a choir sing, so i headed home.
I was suddenly frozen when i got home, so i just hopped in the shower, changed too my pajamas and watched a film, 20 minutes of Eclipse.
then mum came home, reminding me that we had guests for dinner tonight. My aunt and her partner.
Mum had done some food shopping so i started to cook teh food, prawn curry with coconut milk adn rice.
and of course, a lovelyy salad!
The food was.... ahhh. ususally prawns are my favourite food, but ive kinda gone off them. the salad i admit was nice.
Then i kind of headed off, i didnt want to sit there any longer and i felt sick from the food.
Then later htey had dessert, caramel ice cream, caramel sauce adn chocolate pieces. looked good, but i passed.
Definitely tired now.
Tomorrows Sunday, no plans so far. maybe try to get out if the sun is out!!
just curious, but why did you pass on the dessert?
ReplyDeleteI mean it's fine that you passed on it but aren't you supposed to be eating more than everyone in your family...i guess my question is have you actually been sticking to your meal plan mostly this time?
Well it was ice cream and like chocolate. I'm definitely not comfortable eating that, not even if it was cake or like buns. I mean now and again if we're out and I have to, then I'd have to take lke a coffee and cake or something. But generally I'd prefer not to.
ReplyDeleteAnd for me, I find ice cream one of the worst things.
I've only had ice cream once, in like the last year, and that was 'training' at mando, that was in summer.
Yeah I am supposed to eat more, but when I look at what I 'actually' eat, compared to my famIly, it's not close to normal.
My meal plan iz high though, bit I haven't gotten it right with following it. I wish I could, if I knew I didn't gain weight.
It really is stupid, I'm just going to end up back in in patients, but I keep telling myself, tomorrow I'll do better, and then tomorrow, or the next meal.
So in the end I dint do right. :/
I really do feel stupid and wish that 'anorexia didn't have such control, but yo me, I don't feel anorexic.
It's like - 'sure, I don't eat. But I'm not hungry anyway'
:(