Today was spent doing pretty much nothing.
Jist lazying about the house. no fun at all.
I baked some raisin cookies dipped in chocolate aswell. Apparently they were good. Didn't bother trying.
This morning I had a bit of a cleaning spree. Just cleaning the house, but after an hours work, the house was still messy - kinda pointless.
By 4pm I was tired. Tired. Tired.
Realized I hadn't like sat all day, but even though my legs were going to give in, I still wounding let myself sit. :(
I'm worried about tomorrow, if I'm weighed. I can feel it in my body, my thoughts, I think I've lost weight and yes... That's what I want most, but I'm trying my best, cus I've realized how much I don't want anorexia.
I want to become healthy.... Eat sweets. Pizza. Cheese toasties & hot chocolate for breakfast, take second helpings if I'm hungry and dessert. Not worry about calories or weight.
I seriously just want to get rid of anorexia.
Had this stupid argument with my mum, I cant even remember what it was, food anyway.
There's been so many arguemtntd lately that I don't want to be home anymore, I'd do anything to get out of the house.
But going back to Mando tomorrow, won't be a relief.
Finished watching despicable me today. Cute... But I don't know!! :)
Hoping everyone had a good weekend!!
After a 5 year struggle with anorexia (with purging tendencies), depression, self harm and over exercising I have now been recovered for 4 years and i use my blog to help others in the same situation i once was. I am now a happy and positive person who wants to inspire those struggling to choose recovery and to take control over life and happiness again!
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Life without Anorexia
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: [email protected]
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