Spoilt rotten!!

Today was a really day, Was at Mando until lunch, and then after lunch - Fish and spinach gratang, i got to go into town to meet my mum and sister!
   We did a bit ALOT of shopping!! But i felt so guilty, i dont feel i deserve what i bought. the angst and guilt and worry just kept building up in me, until finally i burst... I cant buy anymore. i dont deserve it. Mum calmly talked to me, its ok to buy clothes, you need new clothes.... but i wad feeing evyr shit inside.
   Then we took a fika, there wasnt much to choose form, pies, HUGE cookies, muffins and carrot cake... but i took this small bakewell tart and a chai tea.
   I know.... not enough. and hte way mum looked at me... jsut made me cringe in my sat, feeling even worse.
Each bite i took, made me more and mroe paniced... it felt like suddenly the small tart was adding up to more and more calories.... 500, 600... one more bite.. add another 200 calories.
   i thought the inside would be jam, but it was like bread, soaked in butter or something.
i tried to be sneaky and drop the "crumbs" but the look mum gave me, how i could see the happiness fading from here eyes, how by that small act, i had ruined our whole day. i jus thought, its the same as a sandiwch. bread and butter and jam. ive eten that how many times at Mando?
  i finished the tart and then we carried on looking in shops!

It was soo good to get awya from Mando!!!
    After 4 hours of walking, im not tired though, not even after lugging around 2kg of shopping or soemthing... haha, maybe not?

Back home now, jsut after eating chicken and potatoe mash!!! that was a challenge... but it went well!!!

:)

Enjoy your evenings eveyrone!!