I travelled quite a bit during my childhood - to England, Sweden, Italy, France, Spain, Finland etc And my mum loved taking my sister and I for spontaneous trips. This is something which i love - just sitting in the car. Looking out the window/reading/talking/listening to music etc
I have always had low self esteem and low self confidence. Ive always had good grades but ive never felt like im good enough. I hated getting attention, but i got quite alot of it because i was sick so often. Where we lived, everyone knew that i was the girl with cystic fibrosis as there had been several fundraisers for me, as it is not cheap to have an illness and there were times when things couldnt be afforded.
One good thing that came out of my CF though is that the Make a wish foundation decided to grant me a wish. So they organized for me to get a makeover, go shopping and then get to meet the Rose of Tralee (which is a competition in Ireland). It was a really lovely day!!! And it was one time when i didnt hate having CF.
When i was 11/12 my life started to change - for me anyway. I started to rebel, i stopped taking my medicines as i wanted to be normal. I didnt want to be sick anymore. However it had the opposite affect and i became even more sick. It was this stage where i had stopped eating and had begun exercising more. And that continued for 2 years where i had also begun purging and self harming, until i was diagnosed with anorexia and then the next few years of hell and even more hospital began.
Im not sure if i need to fo through my whole anorexia journey, as it feels like ive already written about it, however i can if anyone wants me to? Or wants any details etc ;) Just let me know!
I think it's really huge part of your life. So I would like you to include this in the story <3
ReplyDeleteWould also be nice to read again your journey through anorexia and life after that to this point, where you are now :) these posts were really nice! :)
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