Ok, so my first lesson was cancelled (got to know that yesterday), so i started my morning with a workout, then i went to school for 1 lesson where i worked on my assignment and then i went home to eat lunch as i wouldnt be able to stay for the rest of the lessons as i was going to Mando. After lunch i began studying maths, and before i knew it i had to leave again.
Got to Mando... it was the same... the same staff working (dont they get tired of telling people to eat and to be still? I mean i first came to Mando in 2010, and the same staff are still working... infact some of the staff had been working there since Mando first started... - hgowever long that is. I guess they enjoy their job? But i cant imagine why!! haha). Some things had changed...Now the bathrooms arent locked! Thats weird, and strange... wonder why they changed that?
First i got weighed, and i decided to look at the scale... just so i know how much i weigh. And i am almost surprised that i actually have gained weight... but at the same time i am more lean/toned than ever... I really cant get over the fact that muscle weighs so much? Its so weird to see the number on the scale going up, but the only changes i see are muscle growth and of course notice i have more strength!! Its very fascinating actually!
Then i ate a snack - felt very weird standing there in line to get my tray... i almost picked up the measuing cups, because that was what i always used to do while i was at Mando... (I thinkthe last time i measured my food was in 2012?!)
Then it was lots of talking, papers to fill in etc etc Everything looked good and my case manager didnt have much to say.
And now i only have 4 more visits until i never have to go back there again!! Woo hoo! Still 3 more years... but i will only go once a year for 3 years! So one more visit this year and then its almost like i can officially forget about Mando!!!
Came home, had some free time and felt very unmotivated to do my work even though i knew i had to.... I was just wasting time... looking in the fridge every 5 minutes, eating half of the contents at home!! haha XD
But then something inside me switched... i moved into the kitchen, brought out all my maths papers and got a good 2 hours of work done. I havea test Monday morning and i can say, I am not at all prepared. Infact this is one of the first tests - ever, where i dont even know if i will pass. There is SOO much to learn. And i am actually quite good at maths so i cant even imagine how the others in my class, who arent so good at maths feel. I am spending hours everyday studying and it is taking a toll on me, and i just feel so mentally tired. But im reminding myself that its only 2 weeks until Easter break!!!
Jag såg dig på mando igår. Önskar att jag vågat säga något. Men jag var för feg, heheh. Kul att se dig ändå!
ReplyDelete:) du borde ha kommit fram :) Dock så var det kanske svårt eftersom jag var bara där en kort stund och med min behandlare :)
DeleteJust wondering- what did you take for a snack at mando?
ReplyDeletea big bowl of vanilla yoghurt, an apple, pear and cereal :) &coffee!!
Delete**i mean an orange not a pear!
Deletehow much quark/ cottage cheese are usually in your bowls?
ReplyDeleteIm not so sure... it all depends. But around 250g quark and like 1dl (100g?) cottage cheese... soemthign like that :)
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