Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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Love your body

Waking up and liking the way i look, that doesnt happen everyday. I mean for most of the time, i like the way i look.... i mean i see my flaws and see things which i want to be different. And then theres times where i compare myself to every girl i see.
    But today, and over the past few days i have just loved the way i look. I havent see any flaws. And even when i was bloated from lots of food& hormones. I just didnt care. I mean, generally i dont care... but this was different.

I like/love the way i look. I dont want to change anything... if i could jsut stay this way. I have never strived to look a certain way. I mean, when i was sick, i never strived to look like skin and bones. I was just so scared of gaining weight and eating, that the weight dropped off of me. I generally just hated myself, felt fat and felt the need to lose weight, but i never really looked at thinspo. I didnt have a goal body, or goal image. I just had hate towards myself and my body.
   
And now with exercise and strength training, i dont have any goals to look a certain way. Exercise is something i love, and i do put up goals like being able to do this, or lift that certain about of weight, or run this far etc. But not any goals like having a six pack, or x % body fat or weighing a certain amount. Those things i can honestly say i dont care about.
   
And i think that makes me more accepting and loving of my body. Because im not striving to look a certain way, and sure, i do compare myself at times. But i guess thats just normal? 
    My body isnt a project which i try to mold. Instead, im living my life. I have school, friends, family, my workouts... i dont spend time longing to look a certain way. Or counting calories or caring what i eat.
   
Infact, i have tried different types of diets (i.e intermittent fasting/ calorie restriction etc ) but those dont work for me....
  the only diet that works for me, is eating the foods i like, and eating when im hungry. Whether thats eating 200g salted nuts & yoghurt and quark, or just eating a fruit for a snack. Somedays i eat 4 meals, while other days i spend the whole day just snacking.... and for me, that works. It works for my life. It works for my health. I feel good. Everyday is different. And my body works well, and my mentality is also good.
   So finding what works for you, is very important. Because if you have a good diet, then it will mean you have energy and feel good in your body!!









6 comments:

  1. You are a stunner! Awesome to know that there are times that you actually aknowledge that (so.much.that... :D) Sometimes it can be tough just to let yourself accept your looks, though.. But enjoy the feeling, right? :)
    Almost off topic: how often do you work your abs?

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    1. Thank you :) Excatly. Yeah im loving this feeling!!!
      I dont work my abs so much... i try to do it once every week, but sometimes its only once every 2 weeks. Just because i hate training abs... and i mean while i do my other workouts i train them, sort of anyway ;) haha

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  2. You are a stunner! Awesome to know that there are times that you actually aknowledge that (so.much.that... :D) Sometimes it can be tough just to let yourself accept your looks, though.. But enjoy the feeling, right? :)
    Almost off topic: how often do you work your abs?

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  3. ^ oopsie (just necessary!)
    -Katriina

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  4. Du har fått sjukt snygga magmuskler!
    Vad gör du för Magövningar? :)

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    1. Tack ;)
      Gör faktiskt inte så många. Tränar mage kanske 1 gång i veckan, eller varannan vecka! Gör typ planka, reverse situps, sit ups på pilates boll, leg lifts etc ;)
      Men övningar som squats, push ups och andra 'full body' övningar tränar magen också!!

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