Work. Work. Work

Rain. Headache. Inner stress. Tired. Work. Work. Work.

My day can be summed up in the words above... though thats pretty much how my life can be summed up in the moment. Today has been a blur. A confusion almost. Ive had a constant headache, and i havent felt present... Like my body is there, but not my mind. I listened, i heard everything. But the information just didnt stay in my head.

   

My first class today was Swedish, and i have a group presentation & assignment, but the guy i was paired with is the one person in the class who doesnt do anything. Seriously. Ive worked with him before, and well... he doesnt work.

^¨Seriously, this picture sums up a group project ^_^

  So that has just added a whole load of stuff for me to do... which im not looking forward to, as ive already got so much other things to study/do. Sometimes i wish i just didnt care, like i just didnt study. Didnt put any effort into school, and could just get pass all my classes with a D or an E.

  But to be honest, just the thought of that scares me. I am a high achiever, I care about my grades. And school is important, even if it sucks at times. I know that in the end it will benefit me. And the people who dont care about school, well we'll see where they end up in 5-10 years time.

   

Actually last night i was looking up what subjects you need to have studied to become a nutrionist, or get into college. And i need to study Biology and maybe Chemistry... but i like science, so thats not a problem. And even though at times i say, i dont want to go to Unviersity. I dont want to study 4 years after i graduate high school. But at the same time, when you're passionate about something, and love something... then i guess learning more information about it cant be that bad? And if its something iw ant to work with, well then you have to put in the work to get the results!! 

The next few lessons floated by.... And then it was the end of school, but as i mentioned last week (i think?) At the moment we have Song practice (As we have a song competition in a few weeks). And its obligatory. But i just felt.... i have so much work to do. And i felt stressed... like i couldnt relax until i knew i was home and started working on my assignments. And the song practise is not in school time. So its extra and well, Aint nobody got time for that!!!

   And also, I dont sing. Never. Ever. Not even when im drunk.... D always tries to make me sing, but nope. Never.

  I wish i had the confidence to sing, but i cant even laugh at myself. I just hate my voice.... So yeah. I just found it a waste of my time and unneccessary as i wouldnt even be singing anyway, just lip syncing.

So when i got home i made myself a snack. Sat infront of the computer and began on my work. And now feeling a little more relaxed. As i feel more focused and know that ive got some of the things out of the way!!

And noooowww... its back to work. And ive made a deal with myself that, if i finish my brain storm & first draft of my english essay, i can make some tasty treats ;)

   Hhahaha!!!