Resting

Something which i personally need to get better at is resting. Its not that i dont want to rest, its that... i dont think about it. Mentally and physically i am always on the go. During summer its different. But once school begins, then im all go.
   At the moment i have plenty of energy, as ive mentioned in previous posts im like an energy bunny. Up at 6am and wide awake, somedays even going out for walks because i have so much energy. And then i come home at 5/6pm and i do my homework, or start replying to emails or comments/writing posts. And planning for the next day, and before i know it its 10/11pm and its time for bed again. Only to wake up at 6am the next day and do the same thing again.

And for now, it works... i have the energy so dont see the point in taking a break... which is going to result in a burnout, or even depression.
 
Resting, both physically and mentally is so important.
 
I dont have scheduled rest days. Mainly because exercise is something which i love so much, and it makes me feel better. On the days where i feel stressed/angry/sad, then going for a run/working out makes me feel better. And then there are days where say i had planned to exercise, but i have homework/study to do, or i have plans to meet friends or i just dont feel like it/tired... then i rest.
  So its more, i rest if i feel i need it. But... i havent felt i have needed it in several weeks and even more.... im not working out/exercising like crazy. And i guess im not feeling tired, so its not have a negative affect. But at the same time, i know i need to rest.

   
And mentally i also need to give myself a break. I have high standards for myself. I aim for the best grades. I put in alot of work for my school assignments. I study alot. Because i believe, you get what you put in.
  And my school is tough, its a prestigious school. Grading is hard. Getting an A is hard... it craves hard work, and many hours put into school work.
   But then i also have my social life, exercise and then my blog/online.

I want to be the best sister, the best friend, the best daughter... and can often feel like a let down. Like i am not kind enough. Or funny enough. Or pretty enough. That i dont spend enough time with my friends, sister or my mum. And its this type of thinking that is dangerous. Because nobody is perfect. I cant be the perfect daughter, or the perfect sister or perfect friend. I can only be me. And do the best i can.
  I am always the one sending messages and keep contact with people, even if at times i can be the one who doesnt reply for a week.... i have already lost so many contacts and people i care about, and dont want to lose any more. So i do my best to let the people i have close to me, know how much i care. And try to spend time with them.


As mentioned above, exercise is something i love. But of course, i have goals within exercise/working out, sometimes it can be more fun when you have something to work towards. But im not so hard on myself with those goals, because sometimes i just find it unmotivating when im trying to reach some fitness goal, because thats not really what exercise is about for me.

And then... my blog & online contacts/life. I do put pressure on myself to post everyday, to reply to emails and comments. And i love blogging. If i didnt i would have stopped. And i love helping people, so i have no problem with people emailing/commenting. Infact, i just find it fun,
   But i do feel bad when i feel i cant write anything important, because i dont have time, amnt motivated or just cant think of anything...
   
So all of those things combined, can make me feel stressed and give me anxiety... and just... never mentally rest. I think alot. And sometimes, thinking can be your worst enemy.

So i need to allow myself to rest, physically and give my mind a break at times. Because otherwise i know within a month or two, or by Christmas i will be burntout and feeling unmotivated to do anything.

So this post is just a little reminder to myself, and maybe to others to remember to give yourself rest!!