Life without Anorexia

My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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rainy sunday

Rainy Sunday. The rain is just pouring down today. I woke at 6am this morning due to the rain and that I was hungry. Yesterday I ate a really nice dinner - 3 course (I didnt eat dessert though) that was cooked by my sister and her boyfriend. Starters was a mozzarella and tomatoe salad. the main was pasta with a tomato and prawn sauce. seriously nice. And dessert was pannacotta. But I passed as I don't like pannacotta. I was really full from dinner last night but I woke at 6am this morning. Seriously hungry. And couldn't get,back to sleep. So I got up and ate an Apple and 2 cheese sandwiches. And a cup of green tea And then I couldn't get back to sleep. So I watched The Social network on tv. Around 9 I decided it was time to get up. Even though it was raining I put on my running gear and out I went for an hours run!!! It was so nice! I love it.... running outside is just so much better then the gym. It felt so good!!! When I got back I drank some coffee and took a shower and then lay in the couch reading. It wasn't long until I fell asleep!!! Just after sleeping for c.a an hour. Still feeling tired but I think its the weather. It's still raining..... so today is going to be a lazy day indoors. But I generally don't have a problem with that. I just want to mope about inside. Sitting on the couch reading. At the moment.... I'm just fat. Fat. Fat. I can't understand.... I'm just this blob. Fat and wobbly. At the moment I am the fastest person in the world. Fat wobbling about. It's like I've gone up 50kg..... what has happened? Why am I so fat. I can't even look in the mirror without wanting to cry.:/

2 comments:

  1. You are perfectly beautiful, dear. I admire you. <3

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  2. I know how you feel, things can be going great and then all of a sudden you just feel yourself being sucked down. I know it's hard, but believe me, in a few days, you wont feel like this. You are absolutely tiny! The last person I would ever call fat! So just keep going as much as you can right now :) xxxxxxxx

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