Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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My day/thoughts


^^ I feel like this right now, hahah

As im stuck in bed, my day hasnt been exciting... going from an elevated leg to having it back on the bed again.... from one position of lying to another... trying to get comfortable though its like 30 degrees in my room, so im just too warm! -_- Want to go stand in the freezer.

Anyway, talking about super powers.. i wish i had the ability to go back in time... to tell myself to not do an outside workout... or do it somewhere else anyway -_- (Yes... feeling sorry for myself, haha!)

Though somethings ive noticed/thought about:

1) My right leg will be super strong after all the hopping had to do to get to the bathroom or kitchen
2)If i didnt have balance before, i will have it now...
3)I will be great at pistol squats (i.e one legged squats) once my ankle is healed as thats basically the only way i can sit down if i dont throw myself down ^_^
4)Jumping on one leg when you really need to pee isnt a good idea -_- hahah *jump* *stop* *pause* *jump again* repeat

Also, when im in school or somewhere else all i long to do is to lie in my bed and watch series... though now when im forced to do that its the last thing i want to do -_- Just staring out the balcony, watching the hill outside and people running/cycling up it... i guess that will be my entertainment for the next while?

As it takes ALOT of effort to get to the kitchen most of my food is served by my sister... so its just to eat what im given ;) haha
  Though she seems to know me pretty well and brought me melons and dark chocolate for a snack (and later i also made myself some yoghurt with nuts and raisins!) & for dinner a small salad type thing.
  I feel though that ive lost my apetite... gone from feeling hungry every hour to now not feeling hungry at all.... whether its in my head or not, or whether my body knows that now im not using as much energy as normal i dont know... Its just to see how it goes the next few days. But NO I wont and AMNT going to restrict just because i wont be doing any exercise. I am still going to eat like normal, but of course i am following my hunger and fullness feelings, and maybe i wont be as hungry as im not doing so much... who knows, maybe im more hungry... im sure if i could actually take myself to the fridge and make myself some food i would feel more hungry?

Anywayy... here are some photos from my 'not doing anything day!'











6 comments:

  1. I just want to go hug you and tell a stupid joke to at least cheer you up a little. Hope your ankle gets better! I know how it feels, jumping around the house just to get to the bathroom and lying in bed all day. But think of it this way: when you're ankle heals you'll be full of new energy (most likely). Everything's gonna be ok! :) you can do this!!
    Olivia

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  2. http://www.wimp.com/learnswalk/ watch this cute video...your dog clip reminded me of it :P

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  3. Hey Izzy! This is random, but how has having this blog benefited you in the long run? I just started my own and i was just curious to hear what you had to say:)

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    1. And I hope your ankle gets better! I'm sorry to see that you are injured :(

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  4. Aw, hope you feel better petal! Your ankle looked awful in the other photo! :/ But hey, melon and chocolate can always make things better ;)

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