What do i eat? I eat food.... I dont eat healthy. I dont eat unhealthy. I dont eat paleo, vegan, vegetarian, lchf and im not on a diet.
I just eat food.... Why do i have to label whether something is healthy or unhealthy`? To me, its food... what im craving. I dont think about my total calories for a day... say i only eat 3 times in a day, i dont then sit and eat 200g chocolate just to make sure i get enough calories. Just like say i ate a breakfast buffet followed by 2 portions of lunch, im not then just going to eat salad and drink green tea in the evening because i ate alot in the day. If i feel that i want to eat 150g salted nuts i will. To me, i dont count calories. I think more about nutrition.
Because the fact is, i would much rather eat a banana (even if im intolerant/allergic) than eat one of those 99kcal special K bars. Because to me, those bars dont taste anything they are just 'low calories' but low calorie isnt always better.
But just because i think more about nutrition doesnt mean that i dont eat food that has little nutritional value... example diet soda. Yes i do drink it. So why dont i drink normal soda... thats better than diet soda, right? Because truth, IT IS. However i prefer diet soda, i dont think its as sweet... and i have gotten used to the taste of diet soda so to me normal soda tastes super weird. Just because i CHOOSE to drink diet soda doesnt mean that i cant drink normal soda, because i can. But of course, i choose to not drink it. But if i want a soda and no diet soda is available, i will drink a normal soda.
For some people, they do have to think about calories and whether food is healthy or unhealthy... but for me, i choose to NOT DO that. Because i dont want to see food as numbers, i dont want to see food as healthy or unhealthy.
Somedays all i crave is salad and fruit. And that might be all i eat in a day. While other days all i crave is nuts and chocolate and then 90% of my diet that day consists of chocolate and salted nuts. And thats ok as well...
For me, i dont worry so much if im not so hungry one day, or if im super hungry one day. Thats just how my body behaves. Just because im bloated a day or two, that doesnt mean i need to restrict.
Something which i hate is when people tell me i eat so healthy. You would think its a compliment, but everytime someone says that to me all i feel like doing is telling them that i eat chocolate 4-5 times a week. That i eat chocolate covered nuts and salted nuts minimum once a week.
I do eat healthy, but i eat HEALTHY FOR ME. Not just healthy in general but for my body and my needs. Because what is healthy for me, might not be healthy for others.
Also another thing i dont like is when people seem to have to make choices... if they eat healthy, then they have to cut all junk food from thier diet, and if they eat unhealthy they go all out and eat all types of junk food. An all or nothing type of thinking. But i dont think thats a healthy thinking. Its ok to have moderation - and moderation is different for everyone. For me, moderation is eating ice cream now and again, but eating chocolate in moderation is 3-5 times a week... while for others eating a pizza once a week is moderation and eating ice cream 2 times a week is moderation.
Eat what you are craving, stop seeing food as healthy or unhealthy, high calorie or low calorie. Food is food. Its energy, all types of food are needed. Maybe eating pizza every night isnt optimal, but eating only salad isnt optimal either.
After a 5 year struggle with anorexia (with purging tendencies), depression, self harm and over exercising I have now been recovered for 4 years and i use my blog to help others in the same situation i once was. I am now a happy and positive person who wants to inspire those struggling to choose recovery and to take control over life and happiness again!
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ReplyDeleteTack! <3
DeleteI hope to one day just be able to listen to my body and eat what I feel is right.... For now stuck Meal planning. How long did it take you to eat intuitively?
ReplyDeleteSticking to your meal plan is a good thing in the beginning, until you feel you can begin trusting your body.
DeleteFor me, it took a long time to learn a normal and healthy relationship with food. It didnt happen iover night, it took several months. All these small changes, learning that it was ok to eat more some days, just like it was ok to eat less somedays. In the beginning i was very strict that i had to eat the same amounts all the time, but then i learnt to not control myself and have so many rules around food. And try to just listen to my body... that if i was craving a certain food, it was better to allow myself to eat it! It takes time, but small changes and really learning to listen and trust yourself is important :)
Izzy, do you like eating chocolate with fruits? Because you often post pictures showing chocolate and fruit on the same plate. Today I faced a 'fear food': dark chocolate. Okay, it was a really small portion and I was eating it very slowly to enjoy every bit and I "survived it" without guilt. But I have not tried it with fruits (yet). I know everyone eats differently, but maybe I'll give it a try. By the way, have you ever tried chocolate covered apple crisps? It is at available in Sweden at all? Because in Hungary it is. And that's chocolate-fruit combination.
ReplyDeleteHmmm... its more that at the time i crave fruit but also dark chocolate... but i dont eat them 'together'. I eat the fruit first, and then the chocolate ;)
DeleteThat is amazing, Well done :) You should be proud of yourself. It might not be alot, but this was your first time. It will only get easier :)
No ive never tried that.. ive had apple crisps though... but maybe i can buy some and then dip them in chocolate or something, it sounds delicious!! :)