Being open

I often think about blogging, why i do it and why i have so many readers? To me i still find it strange... having many readers makes me double think what i write and post but i still post things which I want... My blog is still a part of me, for my sake as well as my readers. As i always try my best to write posts about topics you want to read about.... though i can only do my best!! :)

But one of the reasons i think people like my blog - correct me if im wrong - is that i am so open. Im open about when i struggle, that i can still have bad body image days and days where life just seems to stomp on me. But i am also open about all my grea days, all the awesome moments in my life. And then the not so awesome moemnts such as when i have food babies, spend the whole day eating etc etc Im only human after all ;)

   When i first started my blog i was very anonymous, not my real name, age or anything.. infact i started writing as a 16 year old bulimic girl as i was purging several times a day then so thought i had bulimia. Though the fact that i was barely eating anything and over training and not binging didnt really factor in my head. I thought that if i purged i was bulimic.

   I have deleted those first posts from 2009, and my real blog posts are from 2010 sometime there... and then over the years i became more public and more open. Many posts are covered in half honesties and not telling the truth of many situations i.e i was out running or walking, skipped meals, struggled loads but wrote it went ok at home just because i knew some people that were reading my blog and i didnt want them to think bad of me. But i just caused more problems for myself anyway.

As i got more readers i started posting more pictures of myself, more information about myself, then i made an email account etc etc and i think that also makes people more likely to follow and read my blog? I guess you like knowing who you are reading about.... you like seeing a face to the words. Knowing that its an actual person you can relate to. Not just some robot behind a screen.
    I think people like being able to relate to others, know that they arent alone... and i guess that is what i am. Showing that i have been in the situation you are in, but i took myself out of it. Through hard work and dedication... it wasnta  walk in the park, it was tough work. But it was worth it :)

Sometimes being so open online is weird... its like who is reading my blog? Is it weird old men or crazy people? I dont really know... but i guess thats the chances i take. I
  By reading my blog you can think im self centered and ego istic... i mean all the pictures of myself and constantly writing about myself, but actually thats not how i am. Im the person who never really talks about myself, so its such a contrast on my blog :) hahaha
   Like a secret life, another identitiy almost? :)

Below you see some of the Real me - unpublished pictures :)

^The day i was declared healthy (i.e almost 2 years ago!!) i think i have a right to hog the spotlight, orr? :)