They had already read the article to me, and gone through it... but somehow. Recieveing the article and reading it for myself.... i felt a clump forming in my belly.
And im not even sure why?
For some reason, i feel ashmaed? Not proud of this article? But i should be, because i mean... its basically that i had anorexia was very sick, wanted to kill myself but managed to recover. Thats basically what it is about.
But i dont know.... It feels weird? Its like, i have no problem writing about my anorexia here, or telling my story here... but somehow, it almost feels so personal in the magazine?
But i dont know how many people will really read the article anyway, im sure many will just skim it.
Uschh. Dont really want to write anymore about it...
^^Thats the article anyway.
I know what you mean, it's a part of your life you rather forget. It's the same for everybody went through similar issues: looking at old pictures, reading old diaries... You do feel scared and ashamed, because it feels like somehow it wasn't the real you that was writing that stuff and having such dark thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI think it's healthy to leave the past behind and move on completely. What's gone is gone and you're a different person today.
Yet, never stop being proud of all what you went through. By going through such a bad time, you are indeed the living proof that life can get so much better.
P.S Loving the new banner!!!
I know what you mean, it's a part of your life you rather forget. It's the same for everybody went through similar issues: looking at old pictures, reading old diaries... You do feel scared and ashamed, because it feels like somehow it wasn't the real you that was writing that stuff and having such dark thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI think it's healthy to leave the past behind and move on completely. What's gone is gone and you're a different person today.
Yet, never stop being proud of all what you went through. By going through such a bad time, you are indeed the living proof that life can get so much better.
P.S Loving the new banner!!!
I know what you mean as well. It is something you'd rather forget. But it's similar to what you do here, you inspire people. Seeing what you went through, how much you have recovered, how much you're enjoying life, that is IS possible to recover.
ReplyDeleteDon't be ashamed of your past, but instead be proud of it. It's made you stronger, and you've gained so much from it. It's so inspirational. I love it. (:
Wow, just read the article from the picture, you are so truly amazing izzy! You should be so proud if how far you've come. Like I'm seriously in awe of how amazing you are!
ReplyDeleteYou really inspire me x
Thank you!! It was nice to get anothers point of view on the article!! Haven't even let my mum or dad read it!!!
DeleteYour very brave to be so open about your struggle and success.no one truly understands what it's like to be there unless they go through it and experience it. *big hugs* so glad I've found your blog!
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