Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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Back to school!

Back to school today. I cant say i was so excited.

I started the day with a circuit training pass!! I hadnt planned on going to the gym, but when i woke up this morning i saw that i had got a mail and it said that 'i was now booked to the switch class'. I had put myself on the waiting list... cant remember when i did that? But sure, i was already booked so i thought why not? It might be nice to exercise before school?
   The switch pass was good!!! It wasnt soo tiring. More mentally tiring then physically?
   It was nice to go to the gym in the morning, but the only thing is that after teh gym i always just want to go home, take a shwoer and have somethign to eat (i always bring with me a 'protein snack' for after my workout), but today i just had to get ready and go to school.
   Even though i had washed... i still felt 'unclean.' 'sweaty' haha?!




School, what can i say? it wasnt so fun to be back.
  Its like i had gone back to the first weeks.... where i was alone... :/
 
I dont really care anymore though.... im not gonna cry or scream about the situation. Im not going to make a fuss. What does it matter?
  I just need to get through high school, and then.... its out of here.
If people dont want to be my friend... then fine...
   It feels like ive stopped caring about things.... im someone who usually has a strong reaction to things. Or, usually i just keep what im thinking to myself... until, i burst. Then... everything comes out..
  But now... it feels like... i dont even care about things? like there is no reaction, no thought. Im just like fine. This is how things are...?
  
I feel like the guy in 'The art of getting by' (Has anyone seen that film?)

Anywayy... now its time to get something to eat. And then to start on my homework and studies... Hmmm :)


^^I toned my hair yesterday.

4 comments:

  1. Hi Izzy, it is so hard to read the colour of the light blue font that you use for your posts against the white background.

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    1. Fixed it!! Thank you for letting me know :) (Ive actually been meaning to change the colour... just kept forgetting!!) :)

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