Urrrgghhh, im so fed up with it. Im always cold. Like freezing cold 24/7. It doesnt matter if i have on 3 tops, two jumpers, two pairs of trouser, and like 6 socks on, im always cold. Like even with all the socks on i can feel that my feet are cold. Im really fed up with it. I constantly have loads of clothes on and have like a hot drink permanently attached to my hand. :( Im pretty sure even in summer i'll be the same way.
I've talked to mum, just mentioned it saying how it was annoying like, but she just said "well it's your won choice to be like this. ??? Like, WTF? does she think that being bulimic is my choice? Like ok, i have it but im trying to get rid of it, it's not easy. And i didnt chose to start purging.
Like once when i was Googling Bulimia and the effects of it and how to get help and all that, i saw on a site, and im sorry for writing this, (not sure if im allowed to if, im like violating some rule) but the girl was saying how she had anorexia and that her friends were making he eat and she found it annoying (I know how she feels, thats how my parents were.) but that she couldnt deal with it, so she wanted to start purging instead of telling her friends to stop nagging her. Like for me, i told my parents that i wanted them to stop forcing food into me and they took into account of what i said and they did stop. So it's a difference between wanting to purge and just doing it by accident and not being able to stop (my case).
But just so people know if you're reading this and thinking about purging, trust me, it's not worth it. Read in my older posts about what the effects of bulimia are. And trust me, trying to get over this is like impossible, i feel shit all the time.:(
So basically what my words of wisdom for today is, just get over yourself, if only someone had said that to me when i was younger so i didn't have to go through this. :(
Sure life is life.
All right, seriously got to get to work now!! Cant be spending all my time, updating and telling you, what is happening!! Haha
Oh, sorry, i jsut felt like ranting, about the cold bit!! Haha, bear with me i'll have plenty of days like this!! :D
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