A Life without Anorexia: Back to school

Life without Anorexia

My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.

And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: [email protected]

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Back to school

Wednesday, 21st August 2013. Back to school after 7-8 weeks summer holiday.

I can already feel a weight on my shoulders... though that might just be the nerves. Infact, as im writing this, i have butterflies in my stomach. And not even sure why. I mean, i'm going to the same school i went last year. With my same class.... the only thing which is different is that, im now in a different grade, i'll have a different time table and different teachers etc....
Though i guess its the whole, returning to school after holidays nerves ;)

In all honesty, its not the actual returning to school which is putting a weight on my shoulders, its the fact that i know it will be long days, and alot of work. And i mean, who doesnt want to be able to sleep in and choose what they do and when during the days? Though i mean, that does get boring after a while.
It will just be good planning and habits and routines that will keep me from falling apart for the next year ;)

Last night, i barely slept. Of course, the night where i want a minimum of 9 hours sleep, i barely sleep for 5 hours.... I woke up at hour intervals, and just kep tossing and turning.
I woke up at 6am, and just couldnt fall asleep again, even though i could sleep for another hour or so. So instead, i just got up, pulled on my yoga pants, and a jumper and went out for a walk. That was a good start to my day anyway :)
Then i came home, ate breakfast and got ready.

Am i the only one who feels that, on the last day of school and first day of school i always make myself look extra nice...? As if it really matters. I mean, its like im trying to erase how i look for the rest of the year by these 2 days!! haha. During school, i usually just put my hair in a pony tail, wear my usual, same clothes and just dont care about making myself look extra nice. I mean... im just in school. With the same people everyday.

I told myself that, why bother trying to make myself look extra nice today? But as i had time on my hands.... well, i decided to atleast try!! (make up, hair and clothes is not my thing!! haha )

This is me today: