Life without Anorexia

My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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This isnt meant to be triggering... dont take it the wrong way. Its just this is the truth of people with an ED



^^That happened so many fucking times to me^^

2 comments:

  1. hi love your posts the photo of you in fields is so nice, can i ask did your weight go up quick at the start because i am anorexic diagnosed and gobut going to get treatment nurses come to the house though i may need the tube feeding that is just cant fit food in and i just want to be healthy though scared on how i am going to feel body wise did you feel awkward when you regained the weight like im scared you know as things grow lol i should nt be but i am i need to get to 55 kg to start and thats like more thatn 15 kg scary but im determined yuo were and did it so can i

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    1. Thank you :)
      At the start of my recovery, when i was first admitted to inpatients,i refused to eat and was on bedrest.. but my weight went down.
      But then when i got admitted to Mando, inpatients.. there i had to eat. But im not so sure how much weight i gained, i wasnt allowed to know. And it was such a blur.. i cant remember much from my first time admitted. But it took me roughly 2 months to gain 2-3kg... And that was following my meal plan and no activity at all...
      so it depends.. for some people they've completly ruined they're metabolism, and some just have it easier to gain weight.. for me, ive always ahd it hard to gain weight...
      Its good to hear that you want to get better.. the best thing then is to not focus on how much you gain weight, or how quickly.. because if you want to be healthy, you have to accept the fact taht you're going to gain weight.. whether its 0,5kg a week, or 0,5kg a month... either way you're still gonna gain the wieght.
      Thats how i thought about it... isnt it better to gain 0,5kg a week, and just gain the wieght so that i can start focusing on other things.. and start accepting my body.
      But it also helped that i wasnt allowed to know my weight, so i never knew how much i had gained. I

      Well yeah, going form 'just bones' BMI 14 to normal weight... your body does change.. but its a gradual thing.. its not like you wake up and suddenly you weigh 10kg more.. its small changes... changes which you might not even notice...
      For me, i've gained 15kg since my lowest weight.. and i still have 3-4kg more to go... it sounds awful.. but really it isnt.. you wont notice its 15kg... its only you who will notice the 'changes' everyone else wil see this new healthy girl. They wont see someone fat, or flabby.. or whatever the voice in your head tells you... so try to keep in mind that its only you who sees the small changes.

      Keep positive and realy try your best.. of course you can get better,,, its not easy, but it is worth it. :)
      Keep strong and fight anorexia. Good luck

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