Christmas day

Hello :)

After a pretty slow day consisting of a morning walk, breakfast, film watching, "nothing time", evening walk, dinner, making cake. ... I eneeef up infront of a computer, first time in a  while. And I ended up on instagram and looking at my friends accounts (I use a non person instagram daily but never use my personal one so don't really see my friends pictures) and looking through their accounts I got so much nostalgia... missing old times, but also... jealousy. Usch, hate that I felt that way. But I guess it's a human emotion and the important thing was that I noticed what I was feeling and could think rationally (for some when they get jealous they get hateful and can think negative or mean thoughts or even lead to writing mean comments). For me, I try to just change those jealous thoughts and instead be happy over my own life and my own achievements.  What I have in my own life not focus on others.  It was strange though to see old classmates pictures, what they are doing etc but I also had to remind myself that they are posting the most "post worthy " pictures,  not telling stories or posting pictures of the times they sat at home for 3 days straight and asked themselves what they are doing with their life.  Or when they spent 2 days watching a whole season of a series of when they stalked people's social media and felt bad about their own life. .... most people don't share those things online. They share their best, their achievements.  Their smiles and the positives... no wonder you look at their pictures and think their life is perfect.  But everyone has their struggles,I mean how many times have I posted a picture of me smiling when I am falling apart on the inside. ... pictures can be deceiving.  Though I try my best to also be as honest as possible on here! !!

Anyway, I felt like I needed some distraction and to  write my thoughts so writing them on my blog :)

I also wanted to bring up the fact that I was called "self obsessed, shallow and food obssessed" (not quite in those words but I'm sure that's what the person meant in the comment. That all I care about is my appearance and food,and it's sad if that is what people think of me from my blog. I don't post everything on here,just small parts of my life and I post pictures so that posts don't get boring. But also food posts have been requested and as I don't like posting picture of family or where I live or where I am I post other things such as what I ate etc and when I write posts about bloating or body image that is to help you.  That's not the only thing on my mind but there is no point me writing out all my thoughts, just things which might be interesting or helpful.  But I hope you understand this, that I don't post everything in my life or every thought. But I also don't want to come across as self obsessed and obsessed with body image and appearance. ... if that is the case I need to change how I portray myself on here as that is not how I am in real life. So if that is the image I give please let me know :)

Anyway, now it's time for another movie with my family and tomorrow we're eating lunch at my step dad's mothers place :)