I know fat isnt a feeling... its something else. But i dont quite know what the actual feeling is... Nothing fits, nothing sits properly... its either too tight or too loose.
I dont get these feelings so often, but when i do get them i try to think of other things... not let those thoughts and feelings consume me. Because then all i will do is sit at home and feel awful, and think about how fat i am/feel. Instead, i am going to get up and do something productive today.
I just increased my calorie intake, and I actually saw changes over night. It's not because I have gained that fast. I don't think that's possible. But since I've increased my calories, it's naturally that the carbs I have consumed are also a higher amount. 1 gram of carbohydrate stored in your body makes your body hold 3 grams of water. If I step on the scale, I'm pretty sure I will have gained some weight. My body looks less defined, but I know that I'll no longer see the diferance in a few days, because then the glycogen stored in my muscles will make my arms, legs, butt :), and all other mucles appear bigger. I will not have such a "flat" scape on my body. So even though I am not satisfied with what I see in the mirror today, I will be soon. So I just have to wait :) I know I'm doing what's best for my body! Even though I might get those fat feelings, I just tell myself "NO! These feelings are not YOUR feelings" If I just tell myself that I don't care what my body looks like as long as I'm healthy, happy and able to work out, which i loooove. That's the way of thinking that got me out of that eating disorder-mess in the first place (1,5 years ago). I loved my body yesterday, I will love it tomorrow, so what's the point in not loving it today? My body hasn't done anything wrong. It makes more sense to hate my brain because that's where all of those thoughts come from. But I won't hate by brain because it does so many good things for me. My legs does that as well - they carry me arround, makes it possible for me to work out etc. Sometimes it helps to think of the worst: What is I lost my legs? Then I'm sure I would rather have the legs like an obese person than no legs at all. And my leg aren't even obese, they fit perfectly to the rest of my body.
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