How did you hide your Anorexia for so long? I kow you wore baggy clothes and stuff, but your family must have noticed something, and when your mom first found out that you were sick, how did she react?
Well, the first answer..... i guess i just never went swimming? Actually in the year before i got diagnosed with anorexia, and i was just getting worse and worse, all i pretty much worse was my baggy school uniform (which trust me... hid how skinny i was, as it was a big baggy black jumper and black trousers) or my pyjamas(&huge hoodie) or trackies. I just didnt have to wear a bikini, or anything less then what i wrote above.... and in Ireland its never really warm enough to actually wear skirts/shorts.
How i hid my anorexia? Not so sure really... haha. Never thought i was sick, not even when i was diagnosed. MY not eating wasnt so hard to hide, as my mum worked in the evenings, so she didnt know if i ate dinner, and then i didnt eat in school either.... so that continued for 2 years. And me purging.... well as horrible as this sounds, (but i know im not the only one who has done it.) i had 'buckets' in my room. Which i would purge in if i did eat....
And my over activity, well everyone just thought it was healthy that i was going to basketball training 3-5 times a week and going for walks or runs everyday....
When my mum first found out - about me purging - then it was like her eyes opened up, and she realised that i hadnt been eating with her or my sister (the days that she didnt work in the evening) and how often i was exercising, and realised how thin/pale/tired i was. Though i think my mum hadnt really noticed because i had had so many lung infections, which of course makes me sick, tired, pale, loss of apetite... it was just then that she realised that i was choosing not to eat. She had also realised that i was self harming, which was the first thing she noticed.
When she found out she was worried,and scared, the same with my dad.... and they did their best to try to help me.
Thank you for answering this in a post. Xxx
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