Today for breakfast i had porridge, but it jsut seemed like more. i said it tot he staff but she was like no, they cant do that they have to haev the same portion. BUt iit jsut felt like more it was harder to eat.
and then for lunch the vegetables seemed like less, it seemed like i had less vegetables than normal. It feels like evyrething is jsut off... nothign seems right.
when i pour my drink it looks like more, when i weight up the food it lookslike more??? What is going on?
It makes everything so much harder to eat when you dont trust even wehn your using a measuring cup to meausre up???
And even in the kitchen theres only one kitchen staff which i can trust does the scandishake right, with the others i get all nervouse and dont want ot drink it. Not that i want to drink it anyway, but its almost like i can trust her that hse does it right....
my trsut seems to be veyr down, it feels like everyone around em is tryign to trick me, fool me into taking more food that what i should.... :(
After a 5 year struggle with anorexia (with purging tendencies), depression, self harm and over exercising I have now been recovered for 4 years and i use my blog to help others in the same situation i once was. I am now a happy and positive person who wants to inspire those struggling to choose recovery and to take control over life and happiness again!
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