Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


myths and misconceptions of anorexia.

Myth: Eating disorders are primarily about food.
It’s not about food!
It’s not about weight!
Eating disorders are MENTAL DISORDERS. Someone with an eating disorder may use food to comfort themselves or may control their food intake to numb painful feelings or emotions.   Yes, food and behaviors are a part of eating disorders, but they are the physical manifestation of the REAL issues at hand – self esteem, depression, body image, stress, physical/emotional pain, approval, validation…
Of course food, weight, and appearance play a role, but to make eating disorders all about food is to call them a diet, which they certainly are not.
Myth: Body size is the best indicator of an eating disorder.
Many illnesses are not visible externally and you would never know their pain without knowing the person.  Think of how insensitive this myth is.  We all know appearances can be deceiving, and an eating disorder is not always evident by a person’s appearance/weight.  A low weight is part of the diagnostic criteria for anorexia, but a person with bulimia could be underweight, overweight, or average weight.  Someone with BED will typically be overweight/obese.  You cannot always ‘size someone up’.
Appearance isn’t always an indicator of exact weight, or health.  You can be thin and unhealthy, eating disordered or not.  And because the body is impacted by eating disorder behaviors, of course there will be weight changes.  When someone with anorexia gains weight, it doesn’t mean that they no longer have an eating disorder.  You never know what someone may be going through, even if you know them well.  Eating disorders are by nature very secretive.  Internal turmoil and pain cannot always be visualized..
Myth:  Only teenage girls have eating disorders.
WRONG.  People of all ages struggle with eating disorders.  Eating disorders may often begin during the teen years, but that doesn’t mean that it always happens that way.   There are many older women who struggle with eating disorders, and there are also many cases of men with eating disorders being reported.
Myth:  People with anorexia don’t eat anything.  Or, “I can’t have anorexia, I eat too much”.
First of all, as I mentioned earlier – eating, food, behaviors – all that is not what an eating disorder is really about.  That may not make sense to those of you who don’t know much about eating disorders.  People naturally look at the exterior when you hear mention of an eating disorder, especially anorexia.  Weight and eating behaviors are indicators that something is wrong, but in itself they are not the real issue.
People with anorexia don’t just restrict,  they also avoid certain fear foods.  Eating disorders in general also can be very secretive so all may appear well on the outside but in actuality things are not ok.
People with eating disorders limit intake of things such as fat and carbs, and they do often restrict calories, but much of this obsession is kept secret.  Sometimes we convince ourselves and others that we are just being healthy.  We can also put on a show for ourselves and others, because we don’t want others involved or we want our struggles to remain a secret.
You may see someone with an eating disorder eating “normally”, but you don’t know what is going on when you are not there, and you certainly cannot see inside and know the struggle they are experiencing.  They may eat “normally”, but it may be all they have the entire day, or days.  They may also act on behaviors.
Always remember, appearances can be deceiving.
Myth:  People with eating disorders act this way to hurt the people who hurt them.
Eating disorders are not about acting up or lashing out.  Typically, a person with an eating disorder feels even worse when others are hurt or harmed as a result of their illness.  It’s not about revenge or afflicting others.  Eating disorders develop due to deep seated emotional, physical, or spiritual difficulties.
Eating disorders are sometimes connected with various forms of abuse.  But, this isn’t always the case.  Even when they are connected, they aren’t developed to get back at someone.  It’s not something you just set out to have.  Often, people with eating disorders are stereotyped as bratty or spoiled.  An eating disorder isn’t an attempt to manipulate or hurt.  It is an illness.
Families and loved ones can also feel as though they are being ‘hurt’ by someone with an eating disorders.  Those who struggle with eating disorders are not out to hurt everyone.  Our goal in life is not to make others as uncomfortable and miserable as possible, or to inconvenience everyone.  Don’t tell someone with an eating disorder that they are ‘ruining your life’ [this will only make them feel worse about themselves, and perpetuate the disorder].  Think about how insensitive this myth is.  Eating disorders are illnesses, and illnesses are difficult to cope with all around.  Mental disorders can often be more difficult on some levels since the effects are not always visible.
Myth:  They’ll eat if they get hungry enough.
“Just eat. This might be your intuitive response to someone who refuses food – or to someone who’s bingeing, just stop eating. These are among the least helpful comments you can make to someone with an eating disorder. Eating disorders have complex causes and can’t be willed away.

  • Anorexia nervosa is all about looking good and vanity.
The disorder may initially stem from a want or desire to look good by beginning a diet or restricting intake, but what will take this simple diet to a full-blown disorder is the presence of a distorted view of the self. Insecurities and a distorted self-image fuel an eating disorder.

  • Treatment of anorexia nervosa depends on how long a teen has been suffering from it.
Actually, it has been observed that treating those who have suffered from the disorder from a short time can be just as difficult as those who have suffered for a lengthy period. After the negative mindset manifests in a sufferer, the success of treatment of an anoretic may rely more on an individual’s personality rather than the term of the eating disorder itself.

Myth: Anorexics do not binge or purge.
Reality: Many anorexics will go on occasional binges and purge. Some anorexics can become so fearful of any food or drink that they will purge whatever they put into their system, including water.

If someone is eating and is a healthy weight, they are fine. They don't have an eating disorder.
Eating disorders are characterized by a mindset and obsession over food. While they might not clinically fit an anorexic diagnosis at higher weights, the preoccupation with food and weight can be just as prevalent. 

Why don't they just eat? It can't be that hard.
To an anorexic, eating has come to represent much more than simply food. Their emotions, fears and sense of identity are wrapped up in food/weight, so "just eating" is not as simple for an anorexic as it is for a non eating- disordered person. 

Anorexics eat nothing at all.
Anorexia is diagnosed by calorie restriction, not calorie elimination