Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Update - video (unedited)

Hello,

I apologize so much for my unexplained absence, lack of time and motivation has been the main reason why. But also far too many thoughts, anxities, worries and thinking has left my not knowing what to write.

I decided to instead make a video where it is easier to talk about my thoughts and let that explain things, even if there is alot left unsaid i am still trying to get my thoughts together!

You can find me on www.itsahealthylifestyleorg.wordpress.com however it has nothing to do with eating disorders there. I might still blog on here, i don't know what i want to do.... so just keep an eye out as i haven't decided anything, still very unsure and confused about different things in my life right now!


24 comments:

  1. Dear Izzy, I really hope you will see this. Thank you so much for your blog, for all you have done in the past to help people, and for your giving nature, your care for so many people, many of whom you do not know at all, your generosity, and for sharing your strength of spirit. Your blog changed my life. I can relate to what you say here about not being able to relate to eating disorders any more. But for me it took over 20 years for that to happen, and reading your blog and engaging with it was one of the most significant shifts for me. So, I am grateful. I am glad you are "not ashamed" of your blog, but honestly, I think you should be proud -- I don't mean conceited or complacent, but definitely proud. You have done so much good here, and helped so many people. Yes, you are young, and this confusion is part of life. I am sure you are right to just let things settle within yourself, and let yourself grow. Things are confusing sometimes, and sometimes one just has to wait and see, as you say. Please don't be ashamed of anything here, and please do not lack confidence in yourself. You are so, so gifted and able, both with people and academically, and in your strength of character and purpose. You will go so far, even if you cannot see all the steps now. Thank you for everything here. Take care, wherever your next steps take you. THANK YOU.

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  2. Thank you for everything you've done. You helped me through my recovery (which was one of the most scary and confusing times in my life). When i felt like i didn't have anyone to turn to, i found this blog, and it guided me when I could have easily relapsed. I totally understand not feeling like writing about eating disorders anymore - I know it wouldn't really appeal to me now that I'm healthy - I would want to move on or change. So thank you, and whatever you choose to do, I fully support you! <3

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  3. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us <3 Growing uo is a confusing time and it can be hard to know what you want - I know I don't! This blog has been such a great thing, but maybe it's no longer right for you. Anyway thanks xx

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  4. You have come so far since the days of your eating disorder and recovery, it is no wonder you having theses thoughts and feelings. Your blog should reflect on your life as it is NOW, not forever in the past - and your life has changed and moved on with every year that has passed since your ED.
    I too want to thank you for all you have done for me, for writing the marvellous wealth of information that is your blog and for answering the many questions I have had. I am going through recovery without medical help but your blog has been a daily, constant support for me and I truly believe I wouldn't be at this stage of my recovery now if it wasn't for you. You are brave and courageous and have a heart of gold to want to reach out through your blog and help so many people. I am sure that whatever you decide to do will be the best for you and you will know what that is in time - just let your thoughts calm down and settle and follow your gut instinct because at the end of the day when you get that inner feeling you know it is right for you.
    I look forward to seeing your new blog and I am sure you will make a great success of it.
    Once again I thank you for all your help and support, you have no idea just how much you have altered the path my life was on and how much you have helped me. you are a very special person Izzy - have belief in yourself and you will shine in whatever you decide to do. xxxx

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  5. Hey Izzy,
    Thanks so much for everything. I really appreciate how open honest and vulnerable you have been throughout the past 7 years.
    I think you just need to remember who you ARE, and not be defined by who you were. People will choose how they want to define you but that doesn't matter because they don't know you who really are.

    If you feel held back by this blog, don't be afraid to let it go, and move forward toward fully rising to your potential in the future.

    Good luck hunny.

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  6. Thank you so much for everything you have done over the last 7 years Izzy. You have helped so many. You have given me hope that I can recover and have a good life, and you have led me through my darkest days with all your advice. I truly wish you the very very best with your future- you have a bright future and I know you are going to achieve so many great things and help so many souls. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. I look forward to following this new chapter in your life!

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  9. Whilst I of course wish Izzy all the best and hope that she finds peace with whatever decision she makes - am I the only one that feels a little sad that this could be the end of this blog? It has been an unwavering solid support for me and I for one will miss Izzys posts. She has helped me so much with my recovery journey with all the information she has written, I really don`t know how I would have got through some of the darker days if it wasn't for this blog.

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    1. I totally agree - I'd be pretty sad if this was the end of the blog. It's been such an integral part of my life and my recovery, but I can see where she's coming from with wanting to move on. Now that I'm healthier, I feel like I can barely remember the person I was, and I wouldn't want to be them anyway, and Izzy has to do what's best for her. But i'd still be sad to see this amazing blog come to a close.

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    2. I agree too, it is kind of scary not having new updates to read all the time! This blog has honestly been fundamental in helping my mental recovery and giving me a much healthier happier outlook. If this blog had closed 6 months ago I don't think I would've recovered mentally as much as I have now, I feel like I'm now strong enough to cope without the blog, but it has been so fundamental that it's kind of weird not having it! Weirdly this has exactly coincided with me stopping regular appointments with professionals, so it's kind of like a big moving on time for me in general.
      Also I think I'll just miss having a website to check up on for the random updates and just something nice to read haha.

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  10. In my experience, it is to be expected for an ED recovery blog to close.

    Mindful that being too selfless - 'people pleasing' - and inadequate boundaries are often key areas to work on to reach a healthy position, it seems to me, albeit with limited insight, that closing this blog and moving to a general wellbeing one or none at all could well be a healthy thing to do.

    Sadly there are many, many ED recovery blogs to refer to if desired as and when one closes.

    Blogs or no blogs, I find professional help essential. I have concluded that, while there has been a benefit of encouraging me to get professional help and seeing others are going through the same stuff with similar issues to address, on the whole I have probably gone to blogs to feed my ED; I have made excellent recovery progress over the past 6 months with professional help.

    All the very best Izzy and everyone else.

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  11. I say move on...this blog definitely has so many good resources that I imagine would be helpful in those researching and/or recovering eating disorders to truly assess what is going on, so I would keep all of these posts available BUT your identity is no longer filled with an ED and I love the layout of your new blog. It seems to give you a greater variety of health and life topics than simply writing here...keep it up! :)

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  12. I really miss your blog :( I don't know if you will read or even see this but I do hope you start blogging here again. I miss reading your posts and hearing how you are doing and what you are doing:(

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    1. https://itsahealthylifestyleorg.wordpress.com

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  13. Its the personal touch that made this blog so good and unlike others dealing with recovery. Its so easy just to write a load of advice but the way that Izzy did it was really special. I can read any text book to get the facts of ED but nothing compares with the way Izzy dealt with this subject.
    I think it will be a great shame if she decides this blog is no longer for her, but maybe a decent break from here is what she needs. Who knows, maybe she will feel that she can write on two blogs as they are so different from each other. Time will tell but for now I wish her every success with her new blog.

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  14. I think any call for any past or present ED sufferer to blog about ED should be ignored - surely it runs the risk of being triggering and at the least distracting from working on other things for oneself which is the important thing to do.

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  15. I think sometimes when you have been through an experience yourself you really want to reach out to others in similar situations.

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    1. Yep, for sure. I'm guessing everyone can relate and perhaps has experience of that. I do.

      But to be clear, reaching out to help someone is not the same as that someone approaching a past or present ED sufferer with a request to immerse themselves in ED stuff by blogging after indication being given it may no longer be right for them. Frankly that seems ultra selfish. Lots of sources of help other than pressing for it from any one particular past or present ED sufferer.

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  16. Hey, obviously there is stuff specific to ED that is good to know in recovery, but general wellbeing information from any source seems to me what is most needed - isn't recovery about building a happy, healthy and fulfilling life for yourself? I love Izzy's new blog :-)

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  17. Hi izzy
    Wow, ok i jusy discovered your blog, and you seem to be one of the only people I know who I can relate to. Especially in your one blog the thing you said about reading recipe books - guilty, I never knew it had something to do with eat I ate.

    But anyway getting to the point
    My name is Nina, I'm 15 years old and live in Namibia( africa) and apparently have anorexia. When the doctors first send me to a diatritian I weighed 39kg then I lost another 3kg and now they are thetening to send me to a clinic in cape town (which I know my parents can't afford but they say my health is more important) my bmi is 13.

    I'm really doing my best now but can I ask you a few things nobody else wants to answer.

    1: should I stop exercising completely?
    2:when I have to eat so much my I also eat like yummy food like cookies and muffins
    Or should I rather eat healthy food?
    (Because when they told me to gain weight the first time I thought 'ok now I can eat what ever I want' and I ate ok most only junk food every single day)
    3: when I eat junk food should I eat less of it?
    4:I also exercised a lot and now my entire body is full of these big ugly veins... wil theygo away?

    5:should you exercise every day?
    6:is walking to much bad for you?
    7:when you do nothing but literly sit all day should you stil eat so much?
    8: is there anything I can do to be less bloated?


    Sorry for the bunch of questions, you don't have to answer them all

    Your blog is truly amazing and I really relate to you
    My absolute biggest fear is the day they tell me i no longer have to gain weight - ehat should i do then?

    Thanks a billion
    Nina

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  18. Hi izzy
    Wow, ok i jusy discovered your blog, and you seem to be one of the only people I know who I can relate to. Especially in your one blog the thing you said about reading recipe books - guilty, I never knew it had something to do with eat I ate.

    But anyway getting to the point
    My name is Nina, I'm 15 years old and live in Namibia( africa) and apparently have anorexia. When the doctors first send me to a diatritian I weighed 39kg then I lost another 3kg and now they are thetening to send me to a clinic in cape town (which I know my parents can't afford but they say my health is more important) my bmi is 13.

    I'm really doing my best now but can I ask you a few things nobody else wants to answer.

    1: should I stop exercising completely?
    2:when I have to eat so much my I also eat like yummy food like cookies and muffins cupcakes
    Or should I rather eat healthy food?
    (Because when they told me to gain weight the first time I thought 'ok now I can eat what ever I want' and I ate ok most only junk food every single day)
    3: when I eat junk food should I eat less of it?
    4:I also exercised a lot and now my entire body is full of these big ugly veins... wil theygo away?

    5:should you exercise every day?
    6:is walking to much bad for you?
    7:when you do nothing but literly sit all day should you stil eat so much?
    8: is there anything I can do to be less bloated?


    Sorry for the bunch of questions, you don't have to answer them all

    Your blog is truly amazing and I really relate to you
    My absolute biggest fear is the day they tell me i no longer have to gain weight - ehat should i do then?

    Thanks a billion
    Nina

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  19. Hi izzy
    Wow, ok i jusy discovered your blog, and you seem to be one of the only people I know who I can relate to. Especially in your one blog the thing you said about reading recipe books - guilty, I never knew it had something to do with eat I ate.

    But anyway getting to the point
    My name is Nina, I'm 15 years old and live in Namibia( africa) and apparently have anorexia. When the doctors first send me to a diatritian I weighed 39kg then I lost another 3kg and now they are thetening to send me to a clinic in cape town (which I know my parents can't afford but they say my health is more important) my bmi is 13.

    I'm really doing my best now but can I ask you a few things nobody else wants to answer.

    1: should I stop exercising completely?
    2:when I have to eat so much my I also eat like yummy food like cookies and muffins
    Or should I rather eat healthy food?
    (Because when they told me to gain weight the first time I thought 'ok now I can eat what ever I want' and I ate ok most only junk food every single day)
    3: when I eat junk food should I eat less of it?
    4:I also exercised a lot and now my entire body is full of these big ugly veins... wil theygo away?

    5:should you exercise every day?
    6:is walking to much bad for you?
    7:when you do nothing but literly sit all day should you stil eat so much?
    8: is there anything I can do to be less bloated?


    Sorry for the bunch of questions, you don't have to answer them all

    Your blog is truly amazing and I really relate to you
    My absolute biggest fear is the day they tell me i no longer have to gain weight - ehat should i do then?

    Thanks a billion
    Nina

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    1. Dear Nina, I am not Izzy, but at that BMI you should not be exercising; you should be eating lots; junk food is absolutely fine, really all that matters at this stage is gaining weight; bloating is part of recovery and just has to be tolerated! There is life on the other side of all this, but for the moment weight gain and rest are what matter. Love, and best wishes, from a distant friend. I really hope you persevere through the tough bits of recovery and get well.

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