Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Thursday, June 22, 2017

General questions - answers

Could you write about series/movies that you like.

I dont watch series as much as i used to so it feels like i have forgotten most of the series i used to watch/like. But the ones i can remember are Orange is the New black,  Pretty Little Liars (However i havent even watched the newest season as i'm waiting for all the episodes to be released and then watch them all at once), SKAM (the norwegian series),  stranger things, how to get away with murder,  New Girl, The Carrie diaries ... (had to look at what i have saved on Netflix to remember these hahaah).

And i dont watch films unless im with others and forced to watch. Its strange as i can watch 3 series episodes in a row but i cant watch a 90 minute movie, i get far too uninterested and restless. So i cant really remember any films or movies i like or have watched recently. I personally like mental thriller movies which usually isnt appreciated when watching movies with others hahah.

If you could "step into" the pages/story of a book, (or a film if you don`t read books) which one would you choose? Have you ever enjoyed a book/watched a film so much that you didn't want it to end? Which book/film has had the biggest impact on you?

It's been years since i read a book so i dont think i can answer this question so well. I have been planning on reading this summer and ive even gotten a library card so i can loan books, hahah. But ive started listening to alot of podcasts so prefer that at the moment but also when i went to loan a book i had no idea which book to loan so ended up just leaving empty handed. So if anyone has any recommendations on thriller or fantasty or real life (but not biography!) books it's just to comment below! I definitely need to read more for the sake of my grammar and spelling!

I loved the Twilight series and i think i read all of the books 7 times each (don judge!) and i loved The Host which i read about 4 times. However i disliked all of the movie versions.

When i was a child i used to read all the time, i spent alot of time at home sick so reading was perfect and i could finish a 600-700page book in 48 hours. And would read 2-3 books per week. It got to the stage where my family didnt even know which books to buy me as i had already read so many books... and i had a Kindle so i could just buy books online. Otherwise i love Jodi Picoult books and i have read all of her books up until 2011/2012, and i havent gotten around to reading her books after that, so maybe i will loan one of those books!

I cant remember that a film or book has had a huge impact on me so i will skip that question :) And i know i have had a few books which i havent wanted to end, but i cant remember which they were at the moment as it was so many years ago since i read them and read so many books back then.

How often do you dye/colour your hair and how do you stop it from becoming brittle/drying out?

I havent dyed my hair since September/october2016 i think, and before that it had gone several months since dying my hair.  I stopped dying my hair mostly because i couldnt do it myself, didnt want to pay for a proffessional to do it and three, the hair dye i used wasnt vegan or cruelty free and i didnt feel like experimenting trying to find a new vegan hair colour so just stopped colouring/bleaching my hair. I am so happy i made that decision, it was mostly an unconscious one from just not caring and not wanting to use non vegan hair colour. My hair is in so much better condition now, its not as dry and doesnt fall out or tangle as much as well as it feeling more thick and fuller :) 

Also i used the brand Maria Nila for my hair and i find that it works wonders for my hair and keeps it silky and smooth :)

I would not recommend using strong bleach or hair colours, it dries out your hair, makes it brittle and is just a pain. However toning your hair doesnt damage it as much, so if you still want to colour it, go for toning instead :)

How my hair looked when i had coloured it

How my hair looks now....
I couldnt find any selfies without filters on them hahahha

The colour i wish my hair was i.e silver/grey, but that would require going to a proffessional every 4-6 weeks.

Do you belong to any sports clubs like running or workout classes? Is this something that you would like to do to be social or do you prefer to exercise/workout on your own?
No i dont belong to any sports clubs. Ive never been one to workout with others, i prefer working out on my own. When i lived in Stockholm i went to the gym with my sister sometimes however we always did our own thing, it was just that we had company on the walk to the gym and in the changing room and such.
I would like to do crossfit again which is a sort of "club" and you workout together with others and can be social. But i do like just having the gym time as time for myself and not be social. However when im out walking i often call my family as then i like to just walk and talk with them!

I would like to join a club just so that i can meet others with the same interest as me and who knows, maybe a potential partner who also likes working out. As i would like my future partner to atleast have some form of interest in working out and maybe even go to the gym together, and its not so socially accepted to just go up to someone at the gym and try to flirt. Of course if i had the confidence i could go up and just ask if they wanted to workout together sometime or something similar as we have the same interest if we're both at the gym haha.

But working out is my "me time" so i prefer to be on my own, also if i had to talk a bunch during my workout it wouldnt be as effective and would take more time. I prefer to be in and out of the gym within 60 minutes XD


  1. I love reading so much and read several books a week haha. Which makes it very hard to pick favourites out! But one series you might like is The Selection by Kiera Cass, it's kind of a dystopian fairytale thing and it's just really good :D

  2. Random question but I was curious about whether you speak much English in real life, or whether you tend to speak, read and watch stuff in Swedish? :)

  3. Are you going to make more YouTube videos at all?

  4. I`m the same with films - I am hard pushed to sit and watch all the way through - it would have to be VERY good for me to that! I can`t remember the last time I was able to watch a film all the way through - I don`t know, I get kind of bored and want to be doing other things. That's what I dislike the most about going to the cinema - you have to sit still for several hours and just watch the film - I loose interest too quickly for that :)
    my favourite film is Dirty Dancing - now that I can watch from beginning to end without too many breaks. I even tend to put it on as "background" when I`m studying as I love the music!
    I`ve got a kindle but don`t tend to use it much, I prefer a real book, although I know that's rather strange in these times of tech gadgets! I go to the library at least once a week and just lately have been trying out several new authors. I love books set around the time of WW 2 particularly the semi autobiography type and real life stories. I signed up for Amazons deal with kindle books where by for a few pounds a month you can borrow kindle books without having to buy them. This has been brilliant for me when discovering new authours as it means I can try a book out without the expense of buying it first - so if its no good you haven't really lost out, you just return it!
    I would highly recommend using your library card - theres nothing like a good book to get into and relax with. Browse around your library one day and just see what takes your fancy, you may just be surprised!

  5. Hey! I love your blog! I am currently at the beginning of a journey as I am stuck at home waiting to be referred to a clinic while my friends all go off interrailing post-A levels without me (I had to drop out last minute) I started a blog to fill the inevitable boredom and I would love if you would check it out and give me any tips and advice as I only have 2 posts so far! Thank you, I hope you're well and you look gorgeous from your pictures! :) x