Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Monday, May 1, 2017

Posts about binging and bloating - eating disorder recovery

Three of the most comment questions i get about are weight gain, bloating and binging in recovery, so i thought i would make a little post with some advice/links to posts about bloating and binging in recovery.

Bloating happens and if it doesnt go away for months it might be due to something else rather than just your body and digestive system getting used to food and eating again and beginning to work normally again.

And binging can happen, for different reasons and if it begins to happen too often, then you need to seek help for it and talk to someone about the binging so that it doesnt turn into something very serious and/or worse. However if the binging is just due to that fact that you arent eating enough then often it can help to just follow a meal plan and eat more for your meals.

You can read more posts and advie about binging  HERE and HERE

And bloating: HERE and HERE

Help! I binged! What do I do now?!
First, know your binge. What caused it? How could you have better handled it? What alternatives are there to bingeing? What KIND of binge was it?
Now if you is you DO binge… because it does happen from time to time in recovery… here are 20 reasons not to hate yourself after a binge [x].
And here are some other posts that may help you after a binge:

Bloating in recovery:


  1. I find holding a hot water bottle against my stomach after meals really helps with the feeling of being bloated.

  2. How common is it to develop binge eating behaviour whilst in recovery from anorexia?

    1. ^ I don't know the answer to "how common" it is, but if you are asking because you *have* developed it, please don't feel alone. If you are asking in anticipatory fear, don't worry before it happens, but just focus on developing a healthy, fear-free relationship with food.
      I did develop binge eating and it is hell, but life goes on. It is always worth trying to get better, but it is also worth keeping things in proportion. Binge eating is horrible, it is really horrible to be in the middle of it, but it is also not the be-all and end-all, and whatever your eating struggles, don't let it keep you from the gift of life in all the ways you can grasp it, all the while you can, x.

  3. Thank you for your reply. I was asking out of fear of developing it because just lately I have noticed that whilst I am often not hungry when it comes to meals once I start eating I clear my plate and often want more. This has never happened to me before and I am scared it will get out of control. I am very early on in my recovery and follow a meal plan and I`m not sure what to make of things.

    1. Ah, I see -- thank you for yours too. If you have a meal plan then perhaps you also have a therapist or someone you can talk to about it? Lots of people suffer from "extreme hunger" in recovery, and perhaps it would be good to make sure your therapist is aware of this, and that you discuss together what's best for you?
      It is hard, because recovery needs a balance between letting go of fears and learning to eat when you are hungry and learning that all food is good food in recovery, and that you should never say "no" to your hunger, and yet at the same time keeping enough social engagement and structure that it doesn't turn into a social or emotional problem. I developed binge eating but I think that had a lot to do with being very alone. I don't think binge eating comes simply from hunger, I think it comes from bad relationships to society, and to oneself, food, body etc. I obviously did not get it right, but I don't think you should fear or suppress the hunger itself -- that will just keep you imprisoned in Anorexia, and that's hopeless too -- honestly it is, and one realises that more and more.
      I think you should talk to people about it and work it out together. I don't *know*, but that is honestly my best guess at what would work best. People aren't always aware of "extreme hunger", but it is not good to suppress it, but you want to nourish your body and your social context at the same time....
      Sorry, this rambles. I hope it makes some sense? Love, and I really hope well for you. XX

  4. Thank you so much once again for your reply. I have a dietician so I will talk to her about this, see what she says. This is all new to me and I find it quite scary how my body is reacting to more food. For so long I have restricted and kept to a narrow range of foods and now suddenly I am eating all these different things, discovering new tastes. It feels weird and liberating both at the same time, if you get what I mean. Guilt comes into it too when I realise I actually like the food I am eating and when I have eaten I still have to fight the feeling that perhaps I shouldn't have done. I know these are the thoughts I have to change and like you said, build a healthy relationship with food and see all food as a good thing. Recovery is so tough though, its not just the eating its all the thoughts that go through my head as well - but everyone says it will get easier so I have to hang onto that.
    Are you recovered yourself or are you in recovery?
    Thank you again for your help, you are very knowledgeable and kind xx

    1. Thank you too...
      In answer to your question -- it probably depends how you measure recovered! I'm a healthy weight, and have been for many years; my relationship with food, weight, etc is healthy in most respects, but clearly not in all. The problems for me I think are still largely around the social side of food. Clinically, doubtless I am 'recovered'; for real life purposes, I am still someone with some awkwardness and problems that I long to be rid of.
      I think it is great that you realise which thoughts you need to change, and that you can talk with your dietician about it. Yes, the thoughts DO change over time. Even though I have not got over some aspects of it, esp social ones, I really have changed massively over time and the belief in and hope for real, full health are still there. The experience of change in itself opens up new possibilities, and one learns to wish for and hope for health itself. Thank you too for your lovely message. xx

    2. ps also, I forgot to say -- but your hunger & appetite WILL stabilise and normalise when you reach your healthy weight. They won't stay extreme forever. It *is* scary when one does not know when it will end, but basically your body needs the nourishment, and when it is satisfied, it will let you know. You can trust your body -- and it is wonderful when you come to do so :-)

  5. Just to say, I also worried that I would end up binging as I recovered however it never happened, so it's not inevitable and doesn't happen to everyone who recovers. And if it does happen to you then you can get through it and get better anyway :)