Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Monday, April 10, 2017

Blogging, my thoughts and the future of my blog

Something i have been meaning to film as its easier to talk about than to write in words but you might have noticed i am rather absent on here and there are many reasons for that. But one of the reasons is that each day that passes i am further from the illness. I have been "declared healthy" for 5 years and have felt fully healthy for 4 years. That means that i do find it rather hard to relate to being anxious about food, having fear foods, exercising to burn calories or any other things like that. Its hard to write advice when its hard to remember what it felt like to feel that way. Its easier to write about depression, anxiety, panic attacks and just current life and happiness than it is to write about disordered eating and thoughts. But also i feel i am alot more careful about the advice i want to give, because first and foremost professional care needs to be sought. If you are experiencing pains or problems then its best to go to a doctor and not just ask people online if it will go away or what the pain may be, because there could be so many reasons why. But also things such as bloating, indigestion, coldness, sleeping problems and different pains can all last different amounts of times for individuals. Some people dont bloat or have indigestion at all, others have it for months. Some people only deal with bloating, others get different digestion problems and stomach issues.

Also how much you should eat and what you should eat is so different. There is a reason that there are qualified dietitians and nutritionists, of course they are expensive, but they have studied for several years and their information isnt cheap. When it comes to nutrition you need it to be individualized, not just follow what everyone else is eating, especially not in recovery. Of course, if you feel that the first dietitian you go to isnt helpful or just seems to give a standard plan then try to go to someone else... or if you have to, maybe a qualified dietitian online who has worked with eating disorders. I.e not someone who just works with weight loss and diets.

And when it comes to plant based eating, of course i can give tips and advice and what to think about. However i DON'T recommend plant based eating in recovery and there are many reasons for that. But for a healthy person with a healthy body they can function and absorb nutrients as they should, but when someone is malnourished or has digestion problems or just cant eat alot of volume then plant based eating might not be right for them. But also that the nutrients in plant based food aren't as easily absorbed as animal products and that can cause problems if you already have lack of certain vitamins or minerals. Not to mention that if you are stuck in the "good food/bad food" or restrictive food thoughts then plant based eating might mean that you only eating vegetables and low calorie foods and dont get the energy you need and are still very restricted even if you eat 5 broccoli's a day.... and lack of energy/calories can lead to alot of problems.
So of course i can give advice and inspiration about plant based eating and it is fully possible to gain weight on a plant based diet, but when it comes to recovery i wont recommend it as the first way to eat. And this of course puts a little hinder on my blogging as i would like to blog about veganism and plant based eating, but i don't want  to shove it down your throats so to say.

I have many thoughts about blogging and this blog. I love blogging, i love being online and connecting with all of you but i also have alot of thoughts about what to post, what not to post, how to help and inspire. But also that i cant quite relate to an eating disorder anymore. And this is a good thing, this is how it should be. I know many read my blog for a few months or a year and get the information and help they need and then move on with their life as they no longer relate to an eating disorder, they are free and healthy and that is exactly how it should be! But I'm wondering if its time for me to do the same thing.

Ive had thoughts about starting a new blog, one where the focus will be health, veganism, recipes/food, sustainable living  and maybe even workouts and lifestyle. Though I'm still very unsure... i feel like i want to progress and start new, but it is also very scary and i don't want to let go of this blog. I love the community i have built up here and love inspiring and helping others, but at the same time i feel like i have put myself into this "recovered" box and i no longer want to be there. But also i don't want to put myself in a "vegan" box either where all i write about is veganism because i am more than that and don't want to just blog about that either, but i do want it to be part of what i share.

Anyway, i just felt like i had to share this with you all so you know where my thoughts are at. I have others write to me and tell me i should start a new blog so i know many of you might be positive about this and others less positive. But NO DECISION has been made! Just like with my tattoos, i need several months to think about them before i make the decision :)


11 comments:

  1. Well I think you should follow your gut instinct and if that is knowing that you have moved on with your life and can no longer relate to all the issues of anorexia/EDs, then that is the path you should follow. I can fully understand that you want to move on with your content of your blog because your life has changed, you have changed - you are no longer that sick teenage going through life with an ED and writing about those experiences on a day to day basis. You are now a fully recovered healthy young woman who is finding her way through further education, building towards a chosen career, following a lifestyle and way of eating that she loves, enjoying fitness and exercise and generally living life as any normal and healthy 21 year old should be. I fully support your reasons for moving on - I have written before that your blog should reflect the life you are living NOW, not how it was in the past, and if that means its going to be full of vegan related topics/tips, fitness and exercise, building and living a healthy lifestyle then so be it. I have been reading your blogs past entries over the earlier years and I found that you didn't tend to give so much advice about ED related topics, it was more about your day to day life at school etc although your earliest years did contain a lot of how you were feeling and your thoughts. So your blog has changed already and now you are in the position of giving out advice on a daily basis and I can fully appreciate that that is probably becoming a little tiring to you - not because you can`t be bothered or don`t care - but simply because you have grown and moved away from that ED scenario that was your life.
    So basically what I am saying to you Izzy is do whats right for YOU. Do what makes you happy and motivated once again to post on your blog, do what you want to write about without having to second guess whether you are saying/writing the best thing, write about things that you love and are passionate about, write about your life and thoughts as they are NOW. I am 100% sure that any new blog that you create will be very successful - whether that means keeping this one and changing its focus from once-sick-Izzy to fully -recovered -Izzy - and -what-I`m- doing - now or starting a brand new one then that remains to be seen. I`m sure you will keep a lot of your present readers as many of them comment that they are actually recovered too.
    I personally have found your blog invaluable over the past year and it has answered so many questions I have had and also taught me so much, and I thank you so much for that. You have helped me enormously and your dedication and commitment to wanting to help others is outstanding.
    I would read and follow your new blog/focus as it will show me that there is indeed a life to be had AFTER an Ed, and it is possible to move on and progress with your life, you yourself are living proof of that. And to be honest with you - just the fact that you will perhaps be writing about your day to day life as it is now will prove to be an incentive to many of us to recover as well because you have proven that it is possible to recover and live a healthy, happy life.
    Any change you make can only be a positive one for you because I have noticed just recently how much you have appeared to be struggling with this blog. Do whats best for you and what your heart wants you to do, I`m sure it will be great!

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  2. I suppose you also have to follow your own advice and do what makes you happy and makes you feel free and if this blog isn't any longer a positive thing for you then I guess ...
    But thank you so much for having this blog, it's really made a difference to making me feel happier these past months and I know that so many others feel the same way thanks xx

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    1. I do love my blog so its not that its not positive, its just that i dont know what to post and i cant really relate to an eating disorder anymore... but i guess i can write about other things and my life and such on here. But it feels like i have made this a "recovery/recovered" blog and i want to stick to that on here.
      But im glad to hear i have been able to help :)

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  3. Whatever you do, I think you should preserve this amazing blog by compiling it all into a printed book. If you sold it on a print-on-demand website (like lulu.com) you wouldn't have to worry about selling or losing money. I know I'd buy one. Or just print one copy for yourself. Just make sure you don't lose all these life-saving posts, as well as all those posts early on that document your journey and how far you've done.

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    1. You are so sweet, haha. I wouldnt delete this blog even if i decide to move on... i know it has helped people in someway!

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  4. I think you should trust what your intuition asks you to do. If you find yourself lost for what to say when it comes to eating disorders then it's okay to leave that story behind and start a new. Although your blog helps many of us hoping to be healthy and free, it's still your life and you should do things that make you feel more comfortable. Don't worry, you won't lose your community! We will all follow you wherever you are. I think you did what you can, and it's okay to venture and dig into new things. And I think you'll always be there for people who need you.. maybe you can keep on answering emails concerned with EDs... just trust your passion and most importantly, don't label yourself! Make a blog that's all about you.. not you as a vegan. Things change so it's okay to allow your blog theme to follow your identity. :)

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    1. You are very right. I am going to give it some thinking time and see, maybe inspiration hits. I still love this blog :)

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  5. I am actually very happy to hear this! I mean of course it's amazing you are Always still willing to help others who struggle with an ed or any other mental illness. But in the end this is YOUR blog! I personally LOVE posts about veganism, sustainable living, cooking/baking and fitness. So if it were me i would definitely still follow you. Which goes for many i assume. And besides you don't have to shut this blog down? You could even just progress from here and change it's content into sth you want more atm. Dont forget that 'triggers' are all across the internet. Blogging about fitness and a healthy lifestyle is quite the opposite of what is usually put out on the web. Take Kayla Itsines or realy almost any other 'health' icon nowadays. Not very healthy what they create if you ask me! Restrictive diets, underweight body's, focus on weightloss, calories etc. I think the whole world is pretty mad in that perspective and could definitely use more TRULY healthy input! ;)

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    1. Thank you. No i wouldnt delete this blog, i would still keep it up but move onto another platform or blog... but im not so sure really. I just need some inspiration and time to hit before i make a decision!!

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    2. You could always try it out for a while. Keep both blogs up and post on both and just see what you like best <3

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