These are hard. I’m not going to lie. But I promise you, it will be so worth it!
Don’t work out. At all. You probably want to be “fit and healthy” but working out is the worst you could do right now. Restore your weight, then your mind. And then you can see if working out is what you want.
Don’t restrict any food. Unlimited fats, carbs and protein. Your body needs it all. All of it. Sugars too. Fat too. So unless your health (like diabetes) is restricting you, eat every foodgroup. White potatoes/rice, brown bread, all of it.
Fruit is yum but it’s not a meal. You can have it WITH a snack or WITH your breakfast. But now is not the time to replace your eals and snacks with fruit. Have it with your other things. Get those damn yum vitamins!
You’ll never feel ready to recover. By the time you feel ready, you’re on your death bed and it’s possibly already too late. This life will only happen once. Go for it now, not tomorrow. Now is the time to go.
Fear foods have their name for a reason. Yes, they are scary, but there’s never going to come a time when it’ll feel “right” to do it. Again, now is the time. Get a tub of B&J and go for it. You can do this. Hesitation won’t get you anywhere. It’s one bite at a time to freedom. And yum food is not an exception.
Delete all count apps. Calories don’t matter. You’re eating food. Not calories. See your food as food, not as numbers. It’s not helpful in your recovery and it’ll only allow your ED to be like “yes I got a little control, we’ll expand from here”
Mantras are awesome. You are awesome. Say it, say it a thousand more times. “I’m an awesome kid and I am better than this”. Make it weird, make it fun. Write it on a piece of paper and carry it with you. It helps.
Take care of yourself. Lush bathbomb? Get in that bath! Long, warm shower? I’m in! Face mask? Hell yeah.
Talk to someone you trust, talk to a friend, rant and relieve. It’s okay. Draw, colour, write, read. Keep yourself occupied. It’s okay. You’re okay.
Never. Ever. Ever. Give up. You can fight this. Because you are a bad ass mother fucker. You can do this.