Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
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Wednesday, February 8, 2017
Recovery is not just about getting to and maintaining an "ideal" weight - eating disorder recovery
Please remember this. Yes weight gain may or may not be part of YOUR recovery, but it is not the only thing in recovery. Being free and healthy is about a mindset change, changing behaviours and your lifestyle. Its not just about reaching a certain weight and maintaining it. Its not just about eating your meals or eating when you are with others, but its about FEELING free. You are not recovering for anyone else, you are recovering for yourself, for your own life. You are choosing recovery and making changes so that YOU can live the life you want, so that you can feel happy and free.
You can not fake recovery - sure you can eat when you are with others, but starve when you are on your own. You can smile and be happy when you are with others, but cry when you are in your room on your own. You can workout and say you love it but know deep down that its an obsession. You can have behaviours you do that hold you back from life but think it doesnt matter.
You are not recovering for anyone else and your main recovery goal isnt just to have a healthy weight, that is a minimal part of recovery. And freedom from an eating disorder isnt a short term thing, it takes years to be fully free. I may have been declared healthy and have a healthy weight in 2012, but i didnt feel fully free until 2014. And even now 3 years later, i look back on each year and realise how i grow and change and progress in different ways even if i am free from my eating disorder i still continue to grow and self analyze my previous behaviours and habits so that i can become a better person.
Your goal is to change, to progress, self analyze your behaviours and know what holds you back. Dont fake recovery, dont put on a smile and pretend to be healthy because the only one you are fooling is yourself. Because this is YOUR life and you need to make the best of it. You need to be healthy, mentally and physically so that you can have a great life.
Let go of numbers, dont focus too much on the scale, focus more on mindset changes and changing behaviours. Of course having a healthy weight IS PART OF recovery, but you are not automatically recovered just because you reach a healthy weight. .Its all about YOU choosing to make a change and doing what is best for you and your health.
Also please remember, that you can not choose or know what your healthy weight will be. It will settle at a weight, and it may be higher than you had thought, but in the end.... who cares. Weight goes up and down a few kilo and thats how the body works. Less focus on numbers and more focus on being happy and healthy!