Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Monday, February 27, 2017

NEDA week - 2017

This week, February 26 - March 4 2017, its eating disorder awareness week. I have so many posts already so i thought, why not have YOU ask me questions/recovery questions you might have and i can make posts about them this week?

Whether its questions about recovery, binging, restricting, motivation, relapse or anything else you might have :)

Of course i am not a proffessional and it is ALWAYS recommended to seek professional care, but i can try my best to give advice from my own knowledge or experience. But maybe you have some questions or thoughts. Or maybe you just want to share something about your own recovery or progress and you can either do that via comment or email (but then title the email as guest post or recovery progress so i will know!).

Remember that recovery is possible and worth it. It is not always easy, but it is always worth it!! Dont give up, just keep moving forward each day and know that you always have a choice. You can choose recovery or to stay sick. You may not have choosen to be sick, but you can always choose to recover!!
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  1. Hey Izzy,

    at first, thank you for your blog, i follow you for quite a while and it helps me a lot in many different aspects of my eating disorder and depression.

    I am dealing with eating disorder and depression about 1,5 years now and finally decided to go to a therapist end of last year and it was diagnosed "atypical anorexia" bc my current weight is slightly over BMI 17,5.

    My biggest problem atm is (i guess), that i have never ever talked to friends/parents/boyfriend about my disordered eating habits and thoughts about weight and body. People recognised that i lost weight though, but i just lied about my illness and always said, that i eat enough. Now i am really struggeling if i need to tell people, or if its enough to fight anorexia in therapy.

    I live with my boyfriend and sometimes i think its strange that he doesnt realise it. (he knows about my depression but not about the anorexia). I tried several times to tell him everything, but always was so ashamed, because i lied to him, because you cant see that i am sick, and because i am already 24 years old and have the feeling that i cannot handle my life. Do you think its strange he doesnt realise?

    Also i have not so many and not really close friends to talk about it, i am not close to my parents and dont want to tell them at all. I have a younger sister, but she is only 17 and i think she would understand it but i always have the feeling, if i tell it her, its too much responsibility for her. Or if i tell one single friend, its too much responsibility for them.
    I am so ashamed and dont know what to do, i will talk about it with my therapist of course but i would like to know what you or others would do in my situation? Or how you handled it in your past.
    best, jola

  2. Hi Izzy. Do you think that a person can follow a meal plan forever and be happy? Isn't a sign of illness? Because ever I try to forget my meal plan is horrible, but I want be normal... I don't know what to do, my meal plan is not restrictive, but is a meal plan...

  3. Hey Izzy! I've been writing meal plans for myself following recommended guidelines from my dietician, but I feel like I want to move away from that and into intuitive eating. Writing meal plans is great, but I feel like it's taking so much time away from me an dI still end up changing them later on based on what food I have available and what I'm craving.
    Do you have any tips for moving towards intuitive eating? Or should I stick with meal plans for the time being...I don't see my dietician again until the end of March

  4. Hi Izzy, do you have any tips for being discharged from inpatient hospital? How do you cope with suicudal, anorexia, depression, anxiety and self harm at home? I'll be going to day patient at the hospital but still feel very anxious on how to manage and cope at home. Thank you!

  5. Hey could you write about going Up and eating breakfast during Night?

  6. Hey Izzy, I always tend to eat the same things over and over again, because I am too scared of trying something new. At the moment I basically eat nothing else than plain yoghurt, oatmeal and fruits. Eating is getting so boring that I really feel the urge to restrict again, but I just want a healthy life with a healthy body, but I just can't stand living on nothing else but my safe foods... Do you have any advise on how to cope with the anxiety that goes along with varying food? Or do you have healthy (I also have a problem with "unhealthy" food:/) snack ideas that I could try?

    1. I am not an expert, and I am not Izzy, but I am going to suggest to you that you start by taking baby steps. Mentally, and possibly physically, it may be hard for you to eat other foods...but try to change it up a little at first.
      For example if you always eat bananas and oranges try a new plums, apricots, etc. once you have "conquered" a new fruit try adding some dried fruit or vegetables.
      For oatmeal try steel cut oats or oat bran...they are similar but different.
      As for the plain yogurt, try adding some cinnamon, or vanilla in it.

      You have to get out of the mindset of "safe" foods. Yes, I know it is easier said then done...but most of the time the fear of doing something is greater before doing it and relief comes once you have done it (e.g. taking a test)

      Challenge yourself...add a "safe" new food to your diet every week (other than fruit, yogurt and oatmeal) after a month you will have 4 new foods!
      I hope this was helpful. :)

    2. Thank you very much for your reply it really helped me a lot and I will certainly try it out:)

    3. Glad to help. Let me know how it goes and if I can help you in any other way! :D

  7. I'm not Izzy nor a professional but I think I can help. :)
    For those of you who are dealing with those negative suicidal, self-hating thoughts, I suggest you replace them. I attempted my first recovery when I was 15 but failed because anorexia thoughts haunted me everyday and I couldn't get rid of them. Also, I was lonely and nothing was going on in my life. But then, I started to follow a lot of blogs and instagram accounts that focused on self-love and positivity, I also watched YouTube videos and tumblr photos that were inspiring.. it helped a lot. These things kind of pushed away those voices and I was able to replace them slowly.. and it worked! It's always important to surround yourself by an inspiring, affirming environment and many of us don't have that due to friendship, parental or any other problems that triggered the mental illnesses in the first place. The internet is full of people who want to help.. please try it out over your vacation or free time.. just fill yourself with positivity and hopefully, you'll be okay. :)
    I can always talk to you if you need help! My email:

  8. Do sleep patterns ever settle down? I have this problem every night without fail. I go to bed and I only manage to sleep for about an hour and I`m wide awake - so get up to go to the bathroom and make a hot drink. This goes on every hour, every hour and a half at most until about midnight when I am disturbing my partner so much I get up and go and lay in the lounge downstairs. I sleep on and off for the usual hour at a time but at least this way me getting up so much doesn't disturb mt partners sleep. Every night is exhausting and by the time morning comes around I am worn out. I am on bedrest in the afternoons and sleep a little then, but that's it. Its driving me mad and I don`t know what I can do that will stop this and enable me to sleep properly. Any suggestions?

  9. In recovery and supposedly eating a more variety of foods now that I`m not restricting but I have found that when I like a certain food I am having it all the time because I like it so much. Then I tire of it eventually only for it to replaced by something else! Is this normal? How can I eat more varied when all I really want is this? Is this another ED behaviour?

  10. How long roughly does it take for the body (stomach) to get used to having regular food again ie stomach indigestion calms down? Also I have noticed that about half an hour after eating my temperature goes right up like I`m having a hot flush. What is this?

  11. I am currently taking 3 supplement drinks a day and what I was wondering was for how long should I continue with them? Sometimes I think I would rather get to my healthy weight through food alone but at other times I find them useful if I am struggling with food that day and find it hard to eat so much because I know they are topping up my calorie intake adequately. I don`t want to become too reliant on them though - surely its best in recovery that I learn how to eat properly rather than drink calories like this? How long did you take supplements for and how/why/when did you stop them?