Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Sunday, January 22, 2017

The balanced lifestyle

When most people think of health or healthy they think about certain foods and about exercising regulary. And sure, those things are part of a healthy lifestyle and one definition of health, but health is so much more than what you eat or how much you exercise. It is also about social, mental and even spiritual health and balance.

You can eat as healthy as you like and follow a strict training program but if you dont have mental health or a social balance it can be hard to feel truly happy or healthy. Health and what is healthy for a person is very individual and it varies, but you have to remember that health isnt just eating a salad and going for a walk but its also about your happiness, how content you feel with life (and no, life isnt always easy so you have tough times and times you feel sad, but if you feel content and happy and feel like life is managable the majority of the time it will make you feel so much better and balanced.) Health is about feeling like you can achieve your goals, feeling like you have some form of control and balance with your life and feel an inner peace as well and that you can cope with lifes stressors.

During 2016 i learnt just how important it is with a balanced and healthy social life. To not spend too much time alone or to isolate myself, but to actually join social events and push past that comfort zone that makes me isolate myself. But also to realise that you can go out dancing and have a great time minus the alcohol - or atleast stick to a glass of wine. Healthy doesnt have to be super strict, and sometimes breaking free from routines is the best thing you can do for your health. I originally didnt think i would join my friends to go out, but then at 6pm i just felt like "nope, i want to. Or i can atleast join in the beginning and see what i do later". But its always so fun once we get together as a group and just have a good time and it was fun to go out dancing ... or that was until people at the club began to get too drunk and began to push and shove... then we felt it was time to leave and get something to eat. They ate at burger king but i was uncertain about what was vegan or not vegan so i stuck to a drink before i then went to the store to buy a vegan wrap (thank gosh for those!!!) which i could eat when i got home..... yup, a 3am night snack, hahah.

What did i want to say with this post... well, that health is about so much more than what you eat or workout. But about other aspects in your life. NO YOU DONT need to go out or go out dancing, NO YOU DONT need to drink (and i highly recommend you dont!!!), and no you dont need to have a large group of friends or always be social... but sometimes you need to just force yourself to join social events to try to find a balance and to meet people, otherwise it is so easy to just spend too much time on your own. But most of all, to not be scared of change of routine. Finding the perfect balance of different aspects in your life is key... everyones life is different and thats ok as well, so dont compare your life to others. But just dont let fear hold you back.
In the past i could feel jealous over other peoples lives because i let fear hold me back all the time, i didnt dare do certain things such as go out dancing because of fear and then i was jealous of everyone else who did that.

Find your health, find your balance and be honest with yourself about whether you are happy with your life and your decisions or whether you are letting fear hold you back!


  1. Hey Izzy,
    this is totally irreverent to your post but I'm currently attempting recovery. I'm 22, 161cm and weighed 44.5kg last Wednesday (43.5kg on my doctors scale). I have been in hospital since that day but because there is no proper facility for me to go to in my state I've been admitted to my states public hospital. They have no idea what to do with me because no one is qualified to work with me except the dietitian who I see again tomorrow. My meals are from the normal vegetarian ward diet which provide a main and dessert (sometimes entree but I haven't been getting them because I'm not a fan of the soups) and the dietitian has been having 'nourishing' snacks delivered to me between meals (muffins, dried fruit and nuts, full fat yoghurts etc). Apart from the first day I have actually been eating more than what's expected of me (not that anyone around here has noticed, I've recently realised that there is no one here who can 'save me' and if I want to live (even though my ed tells me I don't) then I need to save myself. So I've been resting (the most I've done is 2km in a day which is a huge huge difference to when I'm home) and I've been eating all the things I've been given to eat. I've calculated this be roughly 3000 calories a day (I actually ate extra for the first two days which made each day just over 4200. I'm assuming this was due to extreme hunger?). Extreme hunger happens in the first two to three days of all my recovery attempts and for the first time ever I've continued to eat the next day.. 3000 calories everyday!
    I guess my question is: Is it okay to just jump to 3000 calories a day right at the beginning of recovery? Like even the first day of it?
    Everybody seems to slowly increase but I feel like that is maybe the amount my body needs right now. I know I will gain weight fast on this amount and I don't want to go home and relapse like I did last time I was admitted.
    I see the dietitian tomorrow, what should I do if she tells me that 3000 immediately isn't a good choice? Should I listen to her or not?
    I just want to do the right thing but I still have eds voice in my head telling me I'm not thin enough to eat this much and that I'm not sick enough to even be in the hospital, that no one cares etc. please help.

    1. I am not Izzy,
      but you have been eating 3000kcal plus for how many days now?
      have you experienced any signs of reeeding sydroms ( arrythmia, shaking...).
      if not, I think it is ok to continue this amount because if you have already done it fór a few days and there were no complications, I see no sence in decreasing you calories again....
      But i am not a doctor...!!!
      Good look!!

  2. I would have thought going from very little food to suddenly eating 3000 calories not a very good idea - surely it should be increased in stages? This is something you really need to discuss with your dietician and maybe draw up a proper meal plan where by you can increase your calories over a period of time? I`m just thinking of re-feeding syndrome, that's all.

  3. n't think I have had any symptoms of refeeding syndrome. If I have then they haven't been severe but I'm assuming that I haven't which is likely to be because I've attempted recovery afew times in the last few months but have ended up in a 'binge/restrict' cycle until I end up giving up and going back to restriction. I've been having then common side effects of when people start eating again (night sweats, water retention, bloating etc) but thats obviously to be expected..

    1. So, I PERSONSALLY would not decrease your intake again...
      Keep fighting...good are not alone!