Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Saturday, January 7, 2017

Life update and recent eats and pictures


At the moment the days are just blurring into one and ive spent the day thinking its Monday, and wondered why there have been so many people out and about. Though only now, at 6pm do i realise that it is Saturday. Its both nice to lose track of the days and lose track of the time, but also makes me a little worried because the days are passing too quickly and it feels like i am not doing "enough", or more... not spending enough time with my family.
All my friends have travelled back to their university cities, or those who live in Stockholm have begun working and studying again so i wont have time to meet them before i leave again. So for now it is just focus on study these last few days before i travel back to Gothenburg again. It feels like i am just sort of "waiting", and longing to travel back to Gothenburg. The anxiety has passed and i feel alot better now, not as stressed or anxious about this coming month or my test next week. Ive talked with the girl i will live with during January as well as the couple i will share apartment with in February and it feels good at the moment, and i cant wait to start my new university courses and just longing for summer as well!! Thinking positvely and seeing the positives is what helps me the most, no point in dwelling in anxieties or "what ifs" or letting fear control me, that just leads to negativity and anxiety.

Moving on....  There is snow choas in Stockholm and i was not ready for it. I have no winter shoes or winter jacket and i only have myself to blame. So far i have managed and well trudging through the snow has almost been comical and i am sure people must have thought i was crazy when they saw me trudging through the snow trying to get to the train and later make my way to the gym - the reason i was smiling though was because i just found it funny.... how much snow it was and how funny everyone looked as well as how miserable they all looked. Sure i want to complain and hate everything about the snow and cold, but there really is no point doing that - it wont make anything better. So instead its just to smile and try to get through the winter because soon it will be spring and summer! (However, i cant deny that i am jealous over those of you who live in warm countries!)



^^It was actually -20 yesterday !

Otherwise... ive been to the gym, eaten delicious food, studied a whole bunch, spent time with my family, gone for unwilling walks with my dog in the freezing cold. Nothing new so to say! But thats ok, the days and hours are passing quickly and i am just trying to make the best of them before i leave.







This was infact a snack XD




And lastly... It's funny how in the same day I can get a message telling me that they love my blog and it has helped them as well as a message telling me that I am disordered and still need help. It's strange how the negatives always stick in my mind a littler longer than the positives, but it also shows that people have different opinions and judgements of me based on what i write and well, all i can do is continue on and not let the negatives affect me!

Anyway, i would like to take a moment to thank you all for reading my blog and for those of you who send me lovely and kind messages! Those mean the world to me, and i am just glad to know that i can help in some way or another!! :)

4 comments:

  1. Love this post Izzy, it looks like you've had some wonderful time off and defiantly had some delicious food. I always enjoy your pictures, all of them!! Love the outside, snowy photos as well. Sorry it's been so cold there, and I'm sorry that people send you negative messages. I know you've helped a lot of people, your blog is lovely and an inspiration to must people 😍😊😙

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  2. Hi Izzy - i hope you are now wrapping up warmly against that freezing cold weather! What you said about not being prepared reminded me of when i first left home. It was in the summer so of course i didn't pack my coat, but the time went by and soon there was the cold autumn mornings to contend with - and still no coat! But i froze for a good week before i was able to get home to collect it:)
    I thought it was cold here but i really can`t imagine the temps you are describing - how do you stand it?? I think if it were me i`d become a slave to the central heating!
    It sounds as though you have had a lovely time and been very busy in the kitchen making all that delicious looking food. Your family will miss you if you have been cooking for them as well :) I`m glad your anxieties about going back to Gothenburg have subsided and you now feel ready to go back and pick up your student life again.
    I don`t understand why you should be getting negative messages when all you are doing is trying to help others in a similar situation you yourself was once in. I think your blog is lively and positive and very inspirational - i really don`t know what i would have done without all the advice you have given out over the past year and value what you do immensely - i`m sure many others feel this too. So thank you for all your hard work and dedication that you put into your blog and thankyou for being so open and honest with your advice :)
    Hope you are having a good weekend and good luck with your test next week!

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  3. Why do you look like you've lost weigh

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