Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: email@example.com
Wednesday, January 11, 2017
Feeling anxious and back to university
Wednesday evening and all I need now is chocolate and series watching, haha. Feeling so mentally drained right now!!!
I'm sorry for my lack of posts recently, there just hasn't been any inspiration or creativity to write. But if you leave some questions below I can try my best to answer them :)
The past 48 hours have been filled with inner stress, anxiety and sleepless nights, so i havent felt the best, but now when im sitting in my room in Gothenburg i feel alot more calm and happy again. Mostly i felt the inner stress because of school work... i have 3 overlapping courses with start on Monday and well that means alot of work and very long days in school. And when i first began to look through my schedule and all the assignments i felt the stress and panic rising, as well as dealing with the inner anxiety of my upcoming test. But today i just sat down, took some time to think and reminded myself to not stress over the "upcoming assignments", that wont do me any good. Instead focus on one thing at a time, im good at wanting to do everything at once and that just leads to stress, too much anxiety and finally a burn out. And i need to learn from past mistakes!!
And of course anxiety over life in general. But once i was on the train to Gothenburg i felt more focused and less anxious, and when i finally arrived i just felt happy and ready to get back to routines and schedules! And of course so thankful for having living accomodation. I must admit it felt strange to head to a new living place - once again, but it also feels good and feeling so thankful for everything in life at the moment. I dont take anything for granted and i am so appreciative of everyone in my life and everyone who has helped me in life as well as the struggles i have had with living accomodations.
I had a great time in Stockholm with my family and i will miss my dog, my family and my old gym alot. I do have mixed feelings but the good thing is that i like my "independant life" as well so its ok, and even if i will miss Daisy - my dog - i got to cuddle her and take her for long walks while i was at home and enjoyed my time while being there!
Anyway, for now i am going to get settled in and then try to find my way to the store so that i can get myself some food and most importantly chocolate!!!! hahah.
Let me know if you have any topic suggestions and i will try my best to keep up with regular blogging before my hectic schedule begins!!
Todays breakfast - 2 portions oatmeal with chia seeds/pudding mixed in as well as a banana, jam and soy yoghurt.
left overs lunch: Taco shells filled with lentils, avocado, potatoes and taco crisps on top as well as hasselback potatoes
Yesterdays dinner - tacos! (I am going to miss eating tacos with my family!)
hahahah, i just need to learn that even if i amnt craving snacks while shopping - ill crave them later!