I'm very open about the fact that I have low self esteem and low confidence levels. I never think I'm good enough and have the habit of talking down about myself and my capabilities. Never think I've done enough or am enough. And I can say it is very draining to think this way, to always feel like everyone else is better than me, but also it's draining for others to be around someone who thinks or talks this way. Often I don't voice all the thoughts I have such as that I'm bad at different things or not goood enough, and other times I say them in a joking way.
Yesterday however when talking to people online I realised just how negatively I talk about myself. In the matter of an hour I had already written "I'm bad at this " 4 times and written I'm the worst at X several times. Not once had I said anything positive about myself. It's not a healthy mindset according to me and something I need to change.
I don't think I even realise just how much I do it.. how I talk about myself in a negative way to others as I don't feel confident. It's like I feel that I need to warn people that I'm bad at everything and they shouldn't have high expectations. My ex used to dislike this trait about me and my lack of confidence in myself.... and now I realise that I hate that trait about myself as well. I want to be confident and project confidence. I don't want to project negativity an low self esteem. I find confidence attractive in others and I'm sure my low self esteem and lack of confidence is off putting for others. Nobody wants to hear about someone continously saying how bad they are at everything.
So more confidence!!! More positivity towards myself and my capabilities. Talk about myself in as positive and uppkäftig manner!!! And you should do the same thing. Believe in yourself and project confidence!!!!