Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Snacking is not bad

I feel like snacking has a bad reputation. On TV programs regarding food and diets it is most often said "don't snack". And before that used to affect me.... I thought, here are people being told to eat 3 meals a day and not snack and instead I am eating 6 meals a day. I thought snacking - the way i was snacking  (listening to my body) - was bad, when in actuality the type of snacking which the program was talking about is the mindless eating/snacking.  It's when people snack on 5 small bags of crisps or take 4 cookies and 500ml of cola each day inbetween breakfast and lunch and then in the afternoon they graze mindlessly and in the evenings they take another 4 cookies. The type of snacking which is done out of boredom or is sort of mindless eating.

I mean nobody is perfect, I've had times I've eaten granola from the box or eaten peanut butter with a spoon from the jar "just because " . Or days when I eat a row of chocolate just because it is there.  Ive also had days where all ive done is snack and not really eat a main meal. But in general my meals are good  and so are my snacks. My snacks are there to give me energy for the day and to keep me full until my main meal. They are a part of my balanced diet and there to make sure I get enough energy. Because i could eat 3 meals a day, but then I'd have to eat about 1000 kcal in each meal.... but I would prefer to keep my meals around 600kcal and eat 5 meals a day instead.
So what am I getting to? That snacks are ok, don't feel bad for eating snacks. There are some people who are shocked when they hear I eat snacks (usually older people who just eat 3 main meals a day), but I have learnt to not care. I mean I was eating 6 meals a day since 2010 (or well.... since the end of 2012 anyway) and it worked for me back then. But now i prefer to eat 4 bigger meals each day (and then the days i feel more hungry i can eat 4-7 meals per day.) It's how I get enough energy and so it shouldn't matter to others. But it feels like the older generation just think of snacks as chocolate, crisps, cookies etx and automatically think snacks are bad.

Snacking is a way to keep blood sugar stable and to keep your energy up througout the day. I mean if you eat breakfast at 7am and lunch at 1pm, thats alot of hours and you might want a snack inbetween those meals. Just like if you eat lunch at 1pm and then you eat dinner at 6 or 7pm then you will more than likely want something in the hours inbetween. Snacking can keep you from overeating during meals as it keeps you satisfied and keeps blood sugar stable and makes you less likely to later in the day overeat on sugary foods. Snacking isnt bad, but its also about what type of snack you eat. Some people think of snacks as just a fruit or 5 almonds, and others think of snacks as chocolate bars and crisps. My thoughts about snacks are that 1) they should fill you up and satisfy you inbetween your bigger meals, 2) they should contain alot of nutrients, i.e if i do want chocolate for a snack or cookies or whatever, then ill eat them as part of something else for example ill eat some fruit and chocolate or eat oatmeal and cookies etc so that the junk food isnt the only snack thing as the junk food is mostly for cravings, but the "real food" is what will fill me up and give me the lasting energy until my next meal. Snacks for me can vary alot... sometimes they arent even snacks, sometimes i just eat 4 big meals in a day, and other times my day consists of 2-3 bigger meals and then snacks such as oatmeal, sandwiches, fruit and nuts and some days my snacks are salad with cheesesandwiches or even just a plate of potatoe or some sweet potatoe wtih peanut butter and banana etc. Snacks are just smaller meals to give you energy!

However snacking isn't for everyone and that is ok as well. If would prefer to eat 3 or 4 big meals that is ok as well. Do what works best for you and make sure to get enough energy. But you shouldn't walk around hungry either just because you think snacks are bad. Snacks can be very good for many different reasons such as not getting that "hangry " stage or when you get very low blood sugar or for people who prefer to eat less more often or those who need high energy intakes and can't get it all in 3 meals.


  1. Wow, your snacks look amazing! Especially the dates with peanut butter, I'll have to try that :)

  2. Hi Izzy - just a quick query rather than a question, wasn't sure where to post it so I`ve put it here on a new post so that you will see it :)
    I`ve been doing some reading on veganism and I came across an article that stated a vegan diet can be just as high in fat and sugar as a meat eating/dairy eating diet, unless you are very careful. Things like meat substitute products and things like coconut milks/creams can contribute to high levels that are not healthy. Thing is - I don`t understand this. Surely eating meat substitutes is more healthy than real meat? I mean, is it a different form of fat? I am rather confused. I thought vegan products contained "healthy fats" rather than being loaded with the not so good satuated fats and chlorestral. Is it really possible to eat "an unhealthy diet" whilst being vegan?
    If you can shed any light on this I`d be very interested :)

    1. Vegan food doesn't mean healthy food... I. E meat, milk, cheese substitutes are all very processed and contain alot of chemicals and of course coconut fat isn't the healthiest fat. If you're vegan for ethical reasons you don't care about those things... you are vegan for the animals. Just like if you're vegan for the environment you'll most probably avoid those foods due to the palm oil and if you're a health vegan they mostly eat completely whole foods and no processed vegan foods. But I mean there are cookies, pizzas, chocolate, muffins, cake etc that are vegan and of course you can overeat those things and lead to negative health. But it's about a balance.... I'm not vegan because it's healthy but because I don't want to contribute to animal suffering.

    2. Thankyou for explaining this :)

  3. Thank you for this, Izzy. I appreciate your distinction between mindful eating of what your body needs, and mindless snacking, and I appreciate your clear rule-of-thumb about a sensible number of calories for each meal.
    Being prone to overeating/mindless binging, and finding it very hard to stop myself from doing that once I start eating at all, I often partly compensate by undereating at other times. I think your rule of thumb about how much each meal should be is helpful. It is hard to remember sometimes what normal eating is, or what a normal distribution of food throughout the day is like, and I am scared to try it because the chances are that every meal will end up as a binge. I bought a book about "Normal Eating" that was recommended on your booklist page. Thank you for that too.