Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Recovery reminders

Well, where is my happiness now? Why am I even here anymore. I don't mean anything to anyone. I hate myself, I hate my life.:
Live your best life...:

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There is no reset button in life. You can't take anything back, and you can't undo anything. All of your actions have consequences, and the things you say and do today will have a lasting impact on the rest of your life. You have to understand that, and you have to be aware of it while making your decisions. ✮✮Feel free to share on Pinterest" ♥ღ

Some days i have more strength than others:
Anorexia destroys you and your happiness, it draws the life out of every part of your body. You feel like there is no way out, but trust me there is. A year ago I had nothing, I was removed from college and I used to cry myself to sleep more a less every night. I now smile everyday and no longer stress about the things I can not control. I still find eating hard but I realise weight is really just a number, when your happy that is irrelevant. I'm learning to love my body and also myself❤️❤️❤️:


  1. Why aren't you posting photos of yourself if it isn't that you want to hide that you've lost weight?

    1. My goodness, just leave Izzy alone with this comments. By now I'm pretty sure your a troll?! Izzy posted a veeery long statement on this subject, addressing everything related to her weight and alleged relapse. In case you missed out on that, it's on page 2 of this blog now and I highly recommend you to read it. In case you already did, please go on with your own life and mind your own business and weight. Even if somebody did lose weight, it's not automatically a relapse and you probably know about Izzy's CF disease which sometimes causes her to lose weight unintentionally due to stomach pain and sickness. Also, she's having lots of stress at the moment and some people tend to lose weight when being stressed out, I lose weight every time when I habe a stressful period in life. So give her a break and read her post (page 2). Have a great day.

    2. I don't have a reason to take photos of myself so I have no photos to share haha. It's not any more strange than that.

  2. Just thought I`d let you know of an excellent website I have found - its called "somethingfishy" - so far from what I`ve read of it looks very informative

    1. I think I've seen that website before and it seemed like alot of great information for people in recovery:)

    2. Yes - I forgot to add that it was very useful for recovery and also because it detailed a whole list of what each type of ED actually does to your body - it doesn't pull any punches and is quite hard hitting with the truth, but sometimes that's just what we need to hear. Some of it shocked me as I never thought the ED would have such far reaching affects.
      There is also a memorial page where there are names of people who have died from their ED. That is very sad and very sobering to read.

  3. Right now I`m running a battle inside my head and writing on here was the only thing I could think of to try to make sense of it. I hope its ok.
    Today is one of the days of the week where I eat the same as everyone else and today that means facing a fear food. Thing is although I did it fine last week this time the voice inside my head is telling me not to have the meal, to have my "safe food" instead, that there is nothing stopping me having it and its ok. Thing is, theres a small part of me trying to reason - no not having the meal will not be ok at all, that I need to eat some "normal" food rather than my safe food, that I need to do the opposite that my ED is telling me and eat the meal - in other words kick the ED in the butt and rise above the nagging thoughts.
    So that is what I am fighting with right now and its not easy. I am trying to remember all the advice I have been give about situations like this but the nagging doubts are so strong.
    Writing this out has helped me clarify my thoughts somewhat and I know what I need to do. Now I have to actually do it, and its scary.