Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
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Friday, December 30, 2016
Living life and the days passing by
I still find it strange by it is always my personal posts that get the most reads, and it still baffles me. I mean my life isnt so special or inspirational, but for some reason i guess you like my personal posts?
Let me know if you want me to write more my thoughts or opinions or whatever else you may be interested in reading about :)
So... how have i spent the past few days?
Well the days are passing by so quickly its almost scary, and the saying "time flies when you are having fun" is definitely true. I am looking forward to the new year, but then again a new year is also just a new day and i dont understand the people who just sit and wait and think that on Sunday everything will change, when that isnt the case at all. Like i have always said, things wont just magicaly change unless you make a change. So 2017 wont be better than 2016 if you dont try to make it better. If you have fears to face or habits to break, YOU need to change them, not just wait for a new year before you begin... but begin right away!!
So dont sit and wait until Sunday to make changes, you can start making changes right now. Or how about siting down and writing some short term and long term goals the new year? Or things you want to experience or lifestyle changes or adventures you want to go on? Feel free to comment below if you have any goals for the new year!!
My day yesterday was spent with first a long workout, once again time just flew by so suddenly i had spent alot longer at the gym than planned, but that was ok. Normally i would freak out about it because "the day wasnt going according to my plan" (i usually mentally plan my day and each thing in my life has a certain amount of time i.e from 10-11 workout, 11-11.30 home journey, 11.30-12 make lunch etc). This might sound strange or strict or compulsive, that is not the case... its more that i get everything i want to done in a day, but of course i am not super strict with following that time schedule. For example the past few days i have been waking up at 9am because i have wanted and needed more sleep, compared to waking up at 6am like i usually do. So this sort of "messes with my time schedule", but i dont actually care because right now i need more sleep and why wake up at 6am when i am actually free from school? Why not appreciate these sleep ins, which i am definitely doing!!
After my workout it was home time and got 90 minutes of studying done. I love what i am studying so i dont find it difficult to do it during my break, but i must be honest i do wish that i was "completely free" and didnt have a test loomiing over my shoulders because i feel like i cant fully let go of school work 1) because i have a test but also 2) because i enjoy it. But i find that if i do a few hours each day it works best and then i dont need to sit 8 hours and be anti social!!
And finally, i ended my day by meeting my friends and sitting in a cafe for 3 hours when we all discussed our current life situations, relationship situations, struggles and positives and trying to make new years eve plans! It was so great to see them again, but of course we are all in different parts of the world studying and even though we are still friends its not the same type of friendship as in high school, whch is only understandable. But i dont like the feeling when its a sort of "awkward" silence even though we are great friends, but its just that no one can really think of what to say... haha. But we are going to meet again this evening so then im sure it will feel better and less strained!!
That was my day yesterday and today it will just be studying before going out this evening and then tomorrow, Saturday its the last day of the year!! Crazy!! I definitely need to find some time to sit down and just write down my own goals for the new year, but also to look back on 2016 and see all the progress i have made in my life and how much i have grown!!!
I ate my salad from a huge serving plate.... was very full afterwards!
The left over cake from my mums birthday!
Vegan wine shopping for new years eve. Though now i regret buying them because i dont know if i will drink them and if i open them i cant save them. But who knows, i might let them stay closed and then just bring them back to Gothenburg with me and keep them for when i do want a glass of wine. But it feels silly to drink just because others are, instead i will drink if i actually WANT TO and not because i feel pressured to... that leads to negative feelings and guilt with alcohol.