Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Monday, December 12, 2016

ED recovery problems


  1. I`m just starting out on recovery and trying to formulate a mealplan to follow. My problem is that I don`t know how many calories to start with? Or should I just ignore the calorie count and formulate amealplan with three main meals to start with? This in itself would be a huge step for me as I don`t eat regular meals at the moment so have no pattern.
    If you can help that would be great. I need to regain at least 21kg to take me back to where I was at before all this started.

    1. I'm not Izzy, but hopefully I can help :)
      I've recently started seeing a dietician as I lost 20 lbs due to restrictive eating. I've been struggling to gain any weight whatsoever.
      She has me create meals plans with 3 main meals and 3 snacks. Instead of focusing on calories, we focus on food groups:
      At least 5 grain servings (I'm still struggling in this area...
      7 fruits/veggies (these shouldn't be prioritized as they aren't as energy dense and they fill you up too fast)
      2-3 dairy and alternative servings
      At least 4 protein and alternative servings
      My meals are pretty small at the moment, but hopefully I'll be able to increase portion sizes soon!!

      Each week I set new goals to try and tackle fear foods and improve body positivity. Right now I'm trying to eat more nuts/but based products and distract myself while I'm eating so I don't feel the guilt afterwards.
      And treats are encouraged :) At least one a week!!

      I hope this helps a little bit :) best of luck!!

  2. How do you deal with comments about eating? I was eating dinner and my boyfriend commented that I was eating the most hes seen me eat for a long time. That made me feel really bad, like that I was overeating. How should I deal with this sort of thing - I take comments like this so personally

  3. I loved these!
    Are you going to do "recovery successes" this week?

  4. That last one is so true! There was some really heartbreaking stuff.
    I find it so helpful to be able to relate to and laugh about certain things in recovery, it makes it so much more bearable :)

    1. I know right, rereading my diary from those times always makes me tear up. But in a way it motivates me to recover.