Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Saturday, November 12, 2016

Thinking positive about life

My first time in 6 years of blogging that I made my blog private (I made it private in 2009 when life was chaotic haha!). I got so many messages on all my social media wondering what's happened.  I am sorry to worry you all.... I'm sure you might have thought I relapsed or maybe thought I was doing a blog make over... neither is the case hahaha! not going to go into details and just keep things private and personal, that'd best online I've realised hahah! some of you might know what's happened, some might not, but I'm moving apartment at the end of the month,  that's all I need one say :) and let's keep comments positive!

So.... how am i doing?
A mix of emotions to say. Whether to laugh or cry i dont know. At times i feel so much anxiety and feel so overwhelmed by it and everything going on that i just want to give up, refuse to continue on because it feels too much. But other times i realise just how silly it is to feel that way and to be so dramatic and that things sort themselves out and panicking or having a mental break down is not going to lead to anything positive. Its like there are 2 parts inside of my mind, one side that is filled with anxiety and panic and has irrational thinking and the other side that thinks rationally and positivly and realises that things will be ok one way or another. So dealing with both sides but trying to focus more on the rational and positive way of thinking - it is more beneficial!!

So current situation, looking for a new place to live at the end of the month. Its funny how just 1 week ago i was worried about finding living for 2 weeks in january, now i have to deal with finding living for 2 months. But also that i had recently said to my mum how i was so tired of moving.... i just wanted to find a place i could settle and live for a long time and not have to pack my bags and move all the time and deal with the stress of finding new living. But you know what.... this experience will make me stronger. One day i will have my own place to live and i will feel comfortable and happy there and then i will look back on these years and realise that they were part of my journey and part of my growth.

Just 6 months ago something like this would have very much tipped me over the edge - as if i wasnt already tipping over - but now its just to think positive and keep going and be thankful for everything in my life. Thankful that i have had a great place to live and that i actually got to start my studies, thankful for my family, thankful for everyone who has reached out to me and tried to help.

Its easy to feel alone, but that isnt the case at all. Like i have always said, if you want help you need to reach out for it, because there is often atleast someone who is willing to help or listen or give advice, but you need to ask for it.

So.... anyway i am doing mostly ok. The stress and anxiety is causing havoc with my stomach and complete lack of appetite and extra tiredness from everything. But i am going to practise alot of self care and just know that i will feel more like myself in a day or two when things are more settled!! :)

This is part of life.... hahhahaaha. Cant have a comfortable life, just needed some blog drama i guess....? Make my life seem not so boring... hahahha.  If only that was the case XD I would much rather take a boring blog and boring life than have to deal with these things XD But i know i amnt the only one going through different situations so i am not going to complain, instead i am going to just be positive!!!

For now there might not be so many personal posts - but i will keep blogging nonetheless, maybe just think twice before i hit post!


  1. Best wishes Izzy! You can get through this! Moving sucks, but 2 months from now you will look back and be amazed at all you accomplished.

    1. Oh yes exactly! :) Everything feels good now after a few days to process everything haha!

  2. So glad you are back! I wish you could post the personal ones too but I understand that you can't. I should be too old to need the support of your blog... but in truth I still value it, so much, and part of that is ongoing eating problems that I wish I had learnt my way out of years ago. I think you are wonderful, and no matter what difficulties are lacing your path, know that you really help lots of people, of all ages, far and wide. Take care, and enjoy your studies. I hope the move goes well, and that the next place is a happy home for as long as it lasts.

    1. Thank you!!! :) i will of course keep blogging and blogging about my life but I guess not as much about my own problems.

  3. Glad to have you back! Thank you for your posts- they are so helpful and inspiring. Look after yourself and best wishes to everything that's going on in your life. <3

    1. Thank you :) I love blogging so it felt so strange to have it private but I felt that that was best for a few days and hopefully now it's not problem having it public again!! :) and thank you!

  4. So good to have you back! I hope that you soon find somewhere else to live where you will feel happy and welcome - that things settle down and you feel at peace again. I know what its like when your head is in turmoil and you are fighting with different emotions - but know that this will pass and believe that you are moving on to better things.
    Try to look after yourself as best as you can and keep thinking those positive thoughts! None of this is your fault and you didn't deserve to be put in this situation. Stay strong and know that we are all thinking of you :)