Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Thursday, November 3, 2016

Share your recovery progress/sucesses

So first "weekly segment" where I want YOU to share some of your recovery successes or progresses. To not feel ashamed or guilty for going against your eating disorder. But also sometimes in recovery you make make progress forward which isn't obvious to others... for example I remember the first time I actually used a full teaspoon of butter on my bread and even if I felt guilty I also felt so proud because I had gone against my ED. But I had no one to share that small success with because it wasn't a big deal to anyone else.

Also maybe your recovery progress can inspire someone else? Have you noticed any improvements, anything positive about recovery or anything you want to share? Comment below and inspire others... but also feel proud over yourself! Maybe you even want some compliments that's OK as well :)

For me... well I've noticed that with positive thinking I feel happier, I feel more energetic and motivated with life. When I try to worry less and focus on positivity I feel more like myself and more happy! Life is easier when I focus on positivity!!!

30 comments:

  1. I went back to work for the first time since my last inpatient stay. I ate despite a weight gain that terrifies me.

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    1. That is such great progress:) I hope work goes well for you and that you enjoy it! Maybe another focus and motivation for life and recovery? And try not to panic over weight gain, you need to eat no matter what. Fuel your body right so that you can live life..my each time you want to skip meals or not eat enough, think about what you would miss out on life. Find the positives now that you are out of inpatient:)

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  2. Today I had work where I stood up to my boss and was focussed despite it being very very busy!! And I ate a load of bread despite it being a fear food :-)) and then chatted to a nurse for ages who was doing my ECG (stranger=scary), rediscovered my love of podcasts so that I was laughing out loud in the middle of town, and also had a donut before dinner because I was offered one (instead of something "healthier" I was gonna have - an apple)!!!

    Onwards and upwards :)))

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    1. I hope work goes well for you!! Yummm bread is so good, enjoy bread - it's the best! And hopefully now you will feel strong enough to eat more bread as bread is nothing to fear and nothing bad happened after eating bread! Podcasts are so awesome, sometimes I just sit on the bus smiling because something in the podcast was funny, and it's such an amazing feeling :)

      Your progress and positives are so amazing, thank you for sharing! And choosing a donut before an apple sounds like a good choice, hahha. :)

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  3. Today I wrote 3 midterms, and I made sure to keep myself properly fueled despite sitting all day! I know my brain needs the energy to function properly. And I just ate a delicious dinner of roasted potatoes and tofu scramble. I'm looking forward to dessert later ;)

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    1. That is so awesome, i hope your midterms went well!! :) And like you wrote, food is fuel and by eating you are giving your brain the nutrients and energy it needs so you can focus properly and do your best during the test!!!
      Yummm... roast potatoes are soo good, i ate lots of roast potatoes for dinner yesterday!!! Hope you enjoyed your dessert :)

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    2. Thanks Izzy!! I'm feeling pretty confident about 2 of the 3...I'm trying not to worry about the marks now haha. Nothing I can do :p and I have all next week off from school to relax, catch up on sleep, and write 2 papers. And watch Netflix of course lol
      Roast potatoes are my FAVOURITE. I don't make them very often, so that makes them a nice treat.
      My cashew salted caramel ice cream was fabulous, thank you :) <3

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  4. I was able to eat my night snack even though I had eaten a dear food for dinner .

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    1. I am so proud of you :) I hope you were able to enjoy the meals, or atleast enjoy them the next time and remember that food is fuel and you are nourishing your body to make it happy!!

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  5. I have gone a full week without missing a meal like I usually do. I am hoping to build on this by making sure I do the same for next week too.
    Also I have brought some chocolate flapjscks for my dessert instead of the usual fruit and yogurt, so although nervous I am looking forward to eating them.

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    1. I'm so proud of you!!! Each step forward is progress, if you've been able to follow your meal plan this week then I'm sure you can do it next week as well! Each meal make the right choice, and I hope you can enjoy that flapjack:):)

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    2. The flapjack was lovely - and I`m going to have another today :)

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  6. Today I finally told my therapist about my eating disorder AND hit my highest weight so far, but have accepted it. I also took the bus instead of torturing myself to walk home.

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    1. That is such a huge step forward!! I hope your therapist can give you the support you need! :) keep fighting and opening up and asking for help is the first step!!

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  7. This is a bit embarrassing to write, especially since I have been recovered for years, but I thought it still might help some one else to read, and it is certainly something I'm proud of. So, this year I started feeling a little uncomfortable with my body. I'm in my 30s, and a couple things are just beginning to change. In particular my tummy. I started paying a bit more attention to how I eat, and just went on with my life. No diets, but food-conscious. A few weeks ago, I realized that I was feeling unattractive, insecure, and comparing myself to everyone around me - in more areas of my life than just appearances, too. I came to the realization that I wasn't as happy and confident as I was before I started paying attention to my food and what I should or shouldn't eat. And that all of my insecurities could be traced back to the day I made the decision to dabble in an appearance-based pursuit again. I immediately stopped. Stopped limiting certain foods, stopped checking my tummy in the mirror every morning, stopped looking at instagrams of fit people who are ten years younger than me with nothing better to do in their lives except pursue a physical ideal and seek internet attention. The change was immediate and total. The very moment I quit looking outside myself, I suddenly felt happier, more confident, more attractive, and even thinner. As soon as I stopped caring about it all, I got it all. I now feel pretty, confident, loving, etc - because it is coming from inside and is not dependent on anything external to validate it. It again taught me the lesson that, due to my past, I am not someone who can diet, or pursue a physical ideal. I just can't. As soon as I indulge any of that, my brain goes to negative places. But not only is it that I can't do those things - I dont want to. I don't want to seek joy from an outside source. I get my joy, my humanity, from within. And it is a BILLION times more rewarding than having the tummy of an 18 year old. Self-acceptance is better than a faster run time. Self-love is better than any look I could ever hope to achieve. So, it's not really an ED recovery win, but it was a win for me. I was surprised to feel those thoughts and feelings coming back after so long without them - but we are all susceptible to lapses here and there, and recovery is not a straight shot. There are times we may need to learn the same lesson a few times :)

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    1. Thank you for sharing this!! And it's so great that you could realise those things about yourself and remember that beauty and happiness comes from the inside! Focus on YOU,not on others! I really hope others can make this change as well, to stop comparing themselves to others and instead focus on feeling happy about themselves as they are! And like you said, everyone is susceptible to small lapses or getting caught up in diets or being too focused on appearance, but if you are self aware you can make a change and not let it become negative!

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  8. I ate the last days more bread than what was in my mealplan because my body was asking for it. Also bought butter instead of margarine, what scares me alot.

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    1. That is so awesome!!! Bread is so delicious and I'm glad you listened to your body:) see these steps as positive and in the right direction! if you want more bread, then eat it :) so proud of you for facing your fears!

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  9. I sat through a 2 hour long movie without feeling guilty, then when I was walking home, I didn't feel the urge to run instead, and at home I ate normal dinner, even though it was an hour later than I usually eat dinner^^ I felt wonderful

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    1. I am so happy for you, and even more happy that you felt great as well!!!! :) one step closer to a healthier mindset! Doing things like that will make you stronger and your Ed weaker!! :) and next time maybe it will be easier!

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  10. I've gained over 10lbs so far in recovery!

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    1. Well done!!!! <3 i hope you can see the positives with the weight gain :)

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  11. These stories are all so great. All these people discovering their inner power, day by day. All these small choices and victories adding up to something great. What a great collection of experience, strength, and hope. Thanks to everyone who shared :)

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    1. I know,I'm so glad that so many have commented and shared their recovery successes/progress! It's important to see those steps as positives and things to be happy about and not feel guilty for eating or gaining weight etc so I hope that other people's sucesses can inspire others!

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  12. I've been relapsing for about a month now, but today I made the decision to get my life back on track and stop worrying about my body...I've been dealing with my disorder for four years now, but I'm ready to get out of this constant cycle of regain, recover, relapse...I ate breakfast today and just finished my lunch. :)

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    1. That is so awesome, and making the decision to recover is the first step! It might not always be easy, but remember WHY you want to and need to recover. Keep fueling your body and making recovery steps, remember your recovery goal when it gets tough :)

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    2. Same here. Last night I made the decision I was going to eat, enough of the re lapsing. I'm fed up with feeling the way that I do and I want to feel happy, healthy and well. Today is the first day back on my full meal plan and no more excuses. So far I have had my breakfast and my morning snack - and it was wonderful to break free from my self - imposed restraints.

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    3. I'm so so proud of you!!!sending a virtual hug your way! Remember this motivation and decision when it gets tough! Remember all the reason to choose recovery and why it's worth it!! And enjoy the food you eat as it's nourishing your body and fueling you so that you can live life :) keep fighting for recovery and freedom :) I hope you have a great day and stick to all your meals!

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  13. Can I just say how I have enjoyed reading all these comments. Its wonderful and up lifting to learn of all the progress being made and this gives me inspiration and determination to do the same in my own life.

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    1. I know it's made me so happy that so many have contributed!! So much positivity and recovery success,because even if it isn't always easy it's important to see all the small steps as positive and making a difference!!! :) i hope it can motivate others and that this becomes a weekly segment!

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