Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: firstname.lastname@example.org
Friday, November 11, 2016
Life and update
So despite no one being able to read this post at the moment I need to write anyway! I've had to close my blog for personal reasons and I feel that laying low online for a while might be a good idea for a few days haha. But I'll keep writing on here so that when I reopen the blog (I. E when you read this) there will be posts to read hahah!
It's funny how life can change so quickly. Going from feeling relatively safe and comfortable to having to look for an apartment/place to live from December onwards.... I. E having to move out on my birthday and the day before an important test is always fun, haha.
In all honesty I am just a mix of emotions at the moment. Yesterday I sat and cried and was physically shaking in school, so much anxiety,panic, fear. But after a few hours everything was processed and I began to think more positive. It's times like now that my positivity and positive outlook makes life so much better. No part falling apart or mentally breaking down.... (even though this morning on the way to school I wanted to both laugh out hysterically but also burst into tears... no idea how to feel hahah. Close to a mental breakdown there!).
I guess what I need to learn is that I am no longer anonymous on my blog, even if I still think I am, I really amnt. So I need to learn that I can no longer write everything I feel on here. Even if I want to be open and honest I can't be anymore.... it's best to just stick to pen and paper and accept that being too honest on here isn't a good idea even if that's what I want to be. So maybe not as many open and personal posts anymore.
But otherwise.... I've processed everything, I'm feeling better and thinking positive and feeling so extremely thankful. So many people have reached out to me and tried to help me and it warms my heart so much. As well as so many people emailing and writing to me and wondering about why my blog is private. It means so much that you all care and I don't think I've ever felt so thankful for people in my life or ever seen so much positivity from people hahah!!
Anyway, I love blogging so I'm not going to stop with it. But I guess some posts will just have to remain as drafts or not be written at all!!!