Something I began thinking about a few days ago was how during summer when I had lost weight and went to see a dietician she told me that even if I jade lost weight I was at the healthiest lowest bmi and so didn't actually need to regain the weight.
At the time I didn't think about what she said, I wanted to regain weight not because I had to but because I knew I felt best while at my normal weight and higher bmi. I told her this and she said that was a good thing but that I didn't need to force myself to gain weight if I didn't want to.
In hindsight I think this is so strange to say.... especially considering that she knew about my past with eating disorders as well as when you have cf it's not good to have a low weight because if you end up with an infection it will be even harder for the body to fight it off as well that if I were to a little more weight it would put me at an underweight.
Her advice was basically, don't lose anymore weight and that I could take supplement drinks to help maintain my weight if necessary. I did however manage to regain weight and felt much better, I had never had the goal or intention to lose weight so that wasn't something I wanted to maintain.
This got me thinking about when I was at mando and I was given my healthy set point which was basically the lowest healthy bmi i.e 18,5. I understand that the dieticians want to make it easy for the patient and it's easier to tell them that you just need to gain 5kg instead of 9kg, or 13kg instead of 17kg or that they need to maintain weight and not lose weight. But focusing on just bmi isn't so great. BMI is so outdated, but also you can't just decide a number and decide that that is where your body will be healthy because that might not be the case at all. Of course bmi can be helpful when it comes to extremes such as if you have a bmi of 17 or less, it does mean you are underweight and the body most likely isn't at optimal health, just like when it comes to obesity as well.
It's important in recovery to not let numbers control you. You might be given a goal weight but realise that weight will fluctuate and that your body might settle at a higher or even lower weight than what the goal is. But also to remmeber that if you have had/have an eating disorder it's best to not be at a weight that is the lowest healthy weight because a lower weight can lead to relapse easier. I.e just losing a few kilo can trigger some to want to lose more weight, but also that if you were to lose weight unintentionally it would put you at an underweight rather quickly. Not to forget that after an eating disorder your body has been very stressed and by having a higher healthier weight can make your body feel safer quicker!!!
I guess what I wanted to write was to not focus so much on numbers but also to not be scared of gaining weight even if you don't "need to" according to the bmi scale. You never know which weight your body will settle at!!!