Hello everyone :)
6pm and finally home from a very long day at school. I was up at 5.30 am this morning and got a workout in before school, which lasted from 8am until 16.15. Where I had 4 hours of lectures and 4 hours of own study time. Most of it is repetition but there is still alot I need to revise and look over so it's not a "chill" course, lots to remmeber. These next 4-5 weeks are going to be filled with hours of studying as it's two short but intense courses in chemistry and I am feeling so mentally exhausted and my eyes hurt from staring at a screen and my back is aching like crazy from all the hours spent sitting. I could focus on the negatives such as that it's cold, it's snowing and i really don't feel like studying. But instead focusing on the positives that 1) I have the privilege of actually studying, 2) it's fun to learn and all the hours I spend studying pays off in the end, 3) the snow and cold just means that warm showers and cosy clothes feel even better. Trying to find the positives!! And I am so ready and excited for the weekend... to be able to sleep, have long workouts and be able to study in my bed and go for walks when it's daylight, hahaha!!!
Anyway, after my long 8 hour school day I headed to look at a room that was for rent in an apartment. It is definitely a possible place I could live but there are still some uncertainties. If I get offered to live there long term I might say yes, however there is another room that I am more interested in but I don't get to look at it until 2 weeks time and I wouldn't get to move in until February.... so it's hard to know what the right choice is. But I'm just thinking that everything happens for a reason. And at least I didn't have a panic attack and filled with anxiety after looking at this room! Not to mention that I am super proud that I even went to look at it as I was considering not going at all as I was so tired, not to mention that meeting new people always gives me a little anxiety. But each time I do it I get a little stronger and face my fear and step outside of my comfort zone. So that's a positive thing about having to move, that I have to step outside of my comfort zone and challenge myself!!!
Anyway, this evening I'm just going to make myself a huge dinner and watch series as I am so mentally exhausted as well as my back aches like crazy from sitting in the lecture chairs :(
I hope you all have a great evening and remmeber to focus on the positives! Change your mindset and a bad situation can feel a little better anyway, haha!!