If you feel that you have the same all or nothing mindset you can read more posts about it in the posts linked below:
black and white thinking
All or nothing thinking
Binge eating - all or nothing thinking
Food is not a test, you can't cheat on it
What i have come to realise - or well always known in some sense - is that i still have an all or nothing mindset when it comes to other areas in my life, especially when it comes to studying. I dont see the point in doing 15 minutes studying everyday (even if this is what i recommend most people to do i.e a little everday). Instead if i am going to study then i am going to do it for 2-5 hours, because anything less just is a waste of time.... i always think "1 hour studying wont teach me much... it takes 20 minutes just to get all my documents open and my pens and paper out and to refresh my mind". Even though i know i dont need to spend as many hours studying each time, its like my mind tells me that any less time just isnt worth it. If i am not going to dedicate x hours to studying, then i might as well not study at all.
Of course this adds stress into my day because its not always easy to find the hours to study as well as it making me mentally tired sometimes to feel like i havent done enough just because i did 45 minutes of studying. Of course when i write this i realise just how silly it is but thats why im writing this post. Just like when i was recovering from binge eating and realized i had an all or nothing mindset and had to change my thoughts to more balanced ones.
I also have this same mindset when i bake.... i.e why bake just brownies when i could bake cinnamon buns and saffron buns as well? I rarely bake just one thing... instead when i bake i dedicate a few hours and do as much as i can with the same ingredients. Of course this isnt so bad, but i always end up with so much baked stuff and never know what to do with it... because sure its yummy the first week but after that you get tired of eating the thing you baked and give it away instead. I also do the same thing with cooking, i.e why bake 5 potatoes when i could make 2kg potatoes instead. Or why make lentil soup for just one meal when i could make lentil soup for 3 days..... of course this isnt so detrimental, this is actually a positive thing in my life as it means that i save time and dont have to cook everyday, because when i do cook i then have food for a few days.
I also have this mindset regarding alcohol. I dont drink because i dont want to put all the toxins and alcohol into my body, not to mention that i take medication that doesnt go well with alcohol and that i get tipsy after just half a glass of wine. But its not that i dont like the taste of alcohol, because i do like the taste of wine, cider, champagne... but i dont like alcohol and i dont see the point of drinking alcohol free (might as well just take a coke then!). So when i drink, its basically all or nothing... either i drink nothing or i drink 3 glasses and 2 shots. Hence why i choose to not drink 99.9% of the time, because i know that my all or nothing mindset will kick in otherwise. But i am more and more learning that its ok to just take a glass of wine if i feel like it and not feel like i have to have 5 more drinks just because i had 1. But instead realising that sure alcohol isnt good and i dont recommend it or promote it, but if i really want a glass of wine (because yes.... sometimes i long to just go sit at a cosy bar with friends and sit and talk and drink wine), then its ok to do that and ok to just have a glass!
I am pretty sure i have the same "all or nothing" mindset in other areas of my life, but nothing i can think about now.... but its important to self analyze and realise these things about yourself. And i think i need to try to find more balance in my way of studying and realize that 30 minutes is better than nothing - even if 80% of the time i dont mind spending 4 hours studying, but i guess i dont want to feel like a failure just because i studied less time than i had planned.... and that feeling stems from my own mindset and what i think is "enough".
Does anyone else have the same type of mindset in their life? Are you actively trying to change it or does it help you? Do you have this type of mindset around food and/or exercise and is it something you might need to change?