Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Sunday, October 2, 2016

Sunday well spent brings a week of content

Hello everyone :)

This weekend is coming to an end, and soon its Monday and a new week with a busy and hectic schedule. School from 8-16.30 almost everyday and lots of litterature to read and seminars to prepare for, but i am not complaining! I know i am on the right course/program because i actually had to force myself to stop studying today.... i was studying out of pure joy and because i love what i am studying. My previous course, with lots of theories and how to write essays, was just pure boredom and i hated it. But now its about nutrition and health - the thing i WANT to study and so i dont mind studying!! This is how it  SHOULD feel when you are on the right course/program in university, or thats what i believe :) Even if essays, tests and assignments arent so fun, you should atleast enjoy learning the new information and know that its something you want to work with in the future even if you dont know exactly what you want to do.

Also ive found that when i am studying what interests me i have much better focus and energy. I spent 5 hours today studying (with a few breaks to do my laundry  and to eat lunch!) and i had full focus all the time - compared to when i had to force myself to sit and read because i found it so boring and pointless. Other things that help me with energy and focus is 1) Fresh air and exercise in the morning, 2) Making sure i have taken my D vitamin pill and other vitamins for the day, 3) Lots of water throughout the day as well as enough food, 4) enough sleep... nobody can focus properly when they are running on few hours sleep, 5) Putting my phone away/turning off notifications.
Running on caffeine is not going to work in the long term, instead you need to figure out how to get natural energy and not just fake energy. Make sure to stay hydrated and energized with food, get fresh air, sleep enough and natural supplements such as green tea, spirulina, D vitamin etc all give energy... not to mention a glass of lemon water or even some chocolate can help!

If you are addicted to caffeine i can highly recommend trying to cut down... trust me, it will help with your energy levels, getting a regular sleep routine and being able to stay focused and energized the whole day without resorting to caffeine... also when you do actually drink caffeine it will have an effect on you! :)

Anyway, moving on... my day started with a walk which was super refreshing, even if it took me 2 hours to actually get out of the house because i was blogging. But i love to start my day with a walk... also recently ive only been going to the gym 3-4 times a week and the other days i have been going for walks and i find this works so much better for me at the moment. I love the gym, but i havent felt as motivated to go there and ive prefered going for walks and listening to podcasts so that is exactly what i have done. Some periods in my life i go to the gym 7 days a week and other periods 3 days a week, and its all about listening to my body and my motivation/energy levels! Also i dont workout everyday, if i dont have the time or energy or motivation i wont workout/go for a walk, but most often i do have some form of activity mostly due to my CF and unless i am sick i will do some walking whether its 15 minutes, 30 minutes or 80 minutes. But because of my CF if i spend a whole day without exercising i will find it much harder to breathe that day and the following day (infact my doctors would prefer if i was running or swimming everyday for optimal CF health). But anyway... i just wanted to write and say that you SHOULDNT feel guilty for not working out, or if you workout less due to school or work or whatever reason. You dont need to workout everyday and living life is so much more important than exercising... LIFE BEFORE EXERCISE ;) Also listen to your body. Sometimes you have time and energy and motivation to workout 2 days a time or everyday of the week and other times you only have time, energy or motivation to workout 2 or 3 times a week, its ok. :) Exericse should be enjoyed, not something you force yourself to do. If you lose motivation for exercise, then rest... dont force yourself to do it!

Anyway, that was pretty much all i had to write for now.... I have had a pretty good day and am feeling positive and happy and i hope that you are feeling the same way :)

Make sure to end your Sunday in the best way possible - whatever way that might be for you :)

Think positive and make the best of your life situation, remember that you are in control of your actions and thoughts and YOU create your own life!


  1. Working out twice a day or 7 times a week is for athletes.. 2-3 times per week is a lot. I think your view on exercise is a bit distorted..?

    1. I don't think so. Different people. Different habits. Different lifestyles. People should do what works for them and what they want to do. And 2 to 3 times a week is pretty normal or average.

    2. Yeah, and I mean... it's a walk. Not like 10 mile runs. I go for three walks a day, because, dog. I guess I should give up my runs and yoga since I guess I'm clearly disordered....? Sometimes stuff just is what it is. some lives are more active than others. It's all a question of "what's your motivation?" And only we know the answer to that for ourselves. Activity on its own is not a problem. It's the potential obsessions and compulsions that are problematic. I LOVE running and would do it every day if my body allowed. However, my body wouldn't approve, and if a whole week passes without an opportunity to run, it's no big deal to me. I just appreciate when I CAN get out there. So, am I disordered? Should I stop walking my dog because I'm "overdoing it"? I eat plenty to support my level of activity. Last night i ate pie and ice cream in bed. Today i cant exercise at all due to working a double shift. I have a yoga class later this week that happens to be on a day when I'll be able to run in the morning, so I'll likely be doing both. Plus the dog walks. It just is what it is, you know? Recovery, especially years down the road (like myself, and like Izzy) is different than early recovery. The level of "policing" is diminished or gone entirely. Balance happens. Motivations change. Things like food and exercise lose their gravity in our minds. They become just food and exercise, no longer loaded with emotional weight and taking up space in our brains. It's actually a very lovely space to live in, and a gift of real recovery.

      I don't mean to sound contentious in this comment, but I really want the message out there that real recovery is possible, and it means being able to live a life free from obsessing over food and exercise, freedom from policing and vigilance over our every steps, and a firm faith and trust in ourselves to take care of ourselves in a healthy way. I do not think that having a history of disorder needs to dictate our entire future. Sometimes I only eat a salad for dinner, and it actually means nothing. Sometimes I eat a double dinner, and that also means nothing. It is what happens post-recovery, it is what was my ultimate goal years ago. I eat, and I exercise, and it all basically means nothing to me. And now I've gone on way too long, I'm sorry, but i wanted an alternative point of view following that original comment.

  2. I don't think so. Different people. Different habits. Different lifestyles. People should do what works for them and what they want to do. And 2 to 3 times a week is pretty normal or average.

    1. This was meant to be a reply to another comment :/